One Day, Someday (2013)

Letting Go

Jeri's POV

"Jeri," I almost jumped in surprise when I hear someone called my name.  Inalis ko ang mga mata sa pareha na magkadikit na magkadikit ang mga katawan na nagsasayaw sa gitna.

I saw Rikku approached me, I saw the sadness in her face as she looks at me.  Natawa ako marahan bago ibinalik ang mga mata sa pareha.  

Tumabi siya sa akin.  She was silent for a moment then look at me.  "Hanggang kailan mo sasaktan ang sarili mo Jeri, for pete's sake.  Let Gabby go," tila maiiyak ito sa pagkakatingin sa akin.

I nodded my head, the familiar ache within me is beginning to uncovered as if kahapon lamang nangyari.  As if it was a new one where in fact its been more than a decade.  A decade since I admitted to myself I was in love with my best and childhood friend Gabriel.  Akala ko mawawala but it went on and on, kahit may isang Eunice sa buhay nito umasa ako na mare realize ng lalaki na mahal niya ako.

 I am his bestfriend.

Literal.

We grew up together.

Literal.

We lived under the same roof.  Been with each other for such a long time, that it's so hard to remember when I did start to love him more than a friend.

I thought he would love me back.  Return my feelings.  Realized that it was me he loved after all.

But I was wrong.  I never had any proper relationship whereas masaya ito sa babae.  Na habang nasasaktan ako ay lalo lamang tumatagal ang relasyon nila.

"I know," I said simply, I try my very best na huwag mag crack sa pinipiit na emosyon yung boses ko pero tila hindi ko iyon nagawa.  I foolishly wipe a tear that fell.