Luke's POV:
"Please don't go" I plead as Ashton lets a tear slip out.
"I love you" He repeats for the millionth time.
We have been repeating this for the past hour, not knowing when Ashton's time will come.
It's today and we know it's coming soon, we just know.
"Luke, don't cry. It makes me sad" Ashton grabs my hand, letting out a shaky breath before smiling up at me.
"Baby no. I'm sorry" I tell him, using both of my hands to cover his.
"You need to promise me something" He tells me, a desperate look on his face.
"Move on. When I die, find someone new to love" He pleads and I let out a sob. Ashton is the only person I love and I can't imagine a world without him, never mind loving someone else. I couldn't do that.
"I'll try" I nod. I didn't want to lie to him, however, I didn't want to just say no. He lets out a shaky face, using his free hand to cover mine.
"Ashton" I squeak out, when he doesn't say anything.
"Ashton" I say louder, as loud as I can this moment in time.
"Say something," I beg, tears rapidly streaming down my face, "Say something" I repeat, now desperate to hear his voice one last time. He starts gasping for air, In a state of panic.
"Ashton" I shout, no longer bothered about who hears us or what I might look like right now. He just continues gasping for air. He looks in pain. deep pain. It hurt. It hurt more than any pain that you could ever experience. The one person you love, the one who completes you, who makes you who you are, being torn away from you in front of your eyes.
I don't scream his name, I want him back, but I know he doesn't want to be back, not in this world where he is experiencing nothing but pain. I just sob, repeatedly pressing kisses to his hand, my tears making his skin damp.
The heart monitor lets out a loud beep and within seconds there is a group of doctors and nurses rushing in, with all kinds of different machines.
A nurse instructs me to leave but I refuse, wanting to spend Ashton last hours, minutes, seconds with him.
A different doctor approaches me, grabbing me by the elbow to try drag me out. I just shrug him off not letting him take me. I can see he is speaking but I don't hear. All I hear is the sound of Ashton's last breaths then the deep beep of the heart monitor.
Pushing the doctor behind me, I make my way to Ashton, needing to feel Ashton's skin one last time whilst it's still warm. I shove anyone who tries to get me out, knowing there's nothing to be done any more. After a while, they all leave me to be alone with Ashton before he is taken away. He already is gone, but he still feels like himself. I grab his hand, his skin cold, not how I had wanted it, but still perfect, perfect because it's him. I push a loose bit of hair from his face, knowing he hated it when it was like that.
He died with his eyes open so I shut them for him. I want it to seem like he is sleeping, I don't want to see his lifeless eyes that have all their sparkle sucked out of them. I wipe his last tear, grabbing his hands and setting a kiss to them one last time.
"I love you" I whisper against his skin before leaving, broken in half.
A/N
Heeey! This is depressing because I was listening to say something I'm giving up on you.
Sorry because it's depressing and crappy and late.
Thanks for reading! Thank yooou! Byee!
Emm x <3
