The Forgotten Pain

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Forgotten Pain : 2yeon part 1

"---at pinapangako kong maaasahan mo ako. Ako lagi ang magpapalit ng diaper ng anak natin, ako na ang magpapaligo't magpapakain. Kahit gawin mo akong alipin sa ating tahanan...gagawin ko. Ganyan kita kamahal. I am ready to be you slave, the beggar of your love. I promise you loyalty and very affectionate husband. I love you, Mrs. Yoo Nayeon for the second time..I love you.."

Jeongyeon promise his wife a lot. After 2 years of marriage, Jeongyeon is having a trouble of keeping up with Nayeon. Once again, he's confused. He forgot his promises, and Nayeon is oblivious of her husband's feelings for her because of her busy schedule.

Yeon (their daughter): Mommy, what is this?

Pinanonood niyang naglalaro ang kanyang mag ina. Nasa playroom sila, kakauwi lang ni Nayeon galing trabaho. Walang trabaho si Jeongyeon sa tatlong taong nakalipas matapos ipanganak ang panganay nila. Kaya siya ang nagsisilbing ilaw ng tahanan habang si Nayeon naman ang kumakayod.

Nayeon: This is a lipstick. What color is this?
Yeon: RED!!!!!
Nayeon: Red! Very good! Ang galing naman ng anak ko!!!

Nakaramdam ng lungkot si Jeongyeon. Sa totoo lang, miss na miss na niya ang asawa niya. Dahil mas focus ito sa kanilang anak at trabaho, pakiramdam niya ay pinapabayaan na siya nito.

Nayeon: Kumain na ba kayo, hon?
Jeong: Oo, kakatapos lang.
Nayeon: Ganun ba, that's good.
Jeong: Nagugutom ka ba? Teka paghahanda kita

Patayo na siya nang pigilan siya ng asawa.

Nayeon: Hindi na. Kumain kami ng manager ko bago umuwi. I just want to rest after playing with Yeon.
Jeong:A-ah.. okay..

Nag usap lang ang mag ina habang siya ay lumabas para uminom ng tubig. Huminga siya ng marahas dahil sa kawalang gana niya ngayong gabi. Nakita niya ang wall clock sa kusina kung saan nakaprint ang family picture nila. After seeing that, he don't feel anything.

Jeong: Why is that?

Dati dati ay kinikilig siya kapag tinititigan iyon, pero bakit ngayon...wala na? Is it fading already? It's only 2 years after their 2nd wedding...

After a while, Yeon's asleep and Nayeon is already at the bed, wearing those sexy red lingerie. He took a quick shower, wore his silk white striped sleepwear and then join her. Nayeon is tired at the photoshoot but it doesn't show on her face. Sumiksik si Jeongyeon sa tabi ng asawa saka tiningnan kung tulog ito.

He kissed her shoulder up to her neck. Nayeon slightly groaned in annoyance but he didn't stop. He kissed her cheeks then Nayeon opened her eyes and look at him flatly.

Nayeon: Jeongyeon...not now. I'm tired. Maybe next time.

Nadismaya si Jeongeyon sa sinabi nito pero mas nasaktan siya nang talikuran siya ni Nayeon saka nagkumot. Nagbuntong hininga siya saka tinitigan nalang ang maliit na chandelier. He's so disappointed and sullen. He slept with a heavy heart, wishing that tomorrow morning is new and fresh.

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Nagising si Jeongyeon na wala na si Nayeon sa tabi niya. Umagang umaga ay problemado siya. Ni hindi na niya maramdaman na may asawa siya.

Jeong: What's new? (sigh)

Naghilamos siya at napansin na maayos ang toiletries. Inisip pa niya kung ganun talaga kaayos ang mga ito kahapon. Isinawalang bahala nalang siya saka bumaba. Nadatnan niya ang anak niyang naglalaro sa carpet sa sala. Nilapitan niya ito at niyakap. Mabuti pa itong anak niya ay napapansin siya.

Jeong: How's your sleep, princess?
Yeon: It's good. I had a dream daddy!
Jeong: What is it?
Yeon: Baby sister
Jeong: Baby sister?
Yeon: Yes. Inside mommy's tummy.

Bumungisngis si Yeon dahil sa kwento habang si Jeongyeon ay ngumiti lang. Another baby is vague for now. Nayeon's too busy with her career. Hinaplos niya ang buhok ng anak at nagpaalam sandali.

Nag agahan siya ng simpleng coffee at sandwich na nakaserve na sa mesa. His breakfast is very different from their breakfast as a newlywed. Nayeon's serving his meals while her baby bump is starting to grow. That moments where Yeon isn't yet born and after her birth are irreplaceable. But now, he feels emptiness.

"Hay...bakit ba ako nagrereklamo e kasalanan ko naman kung bakit career muna siya sa ngayon. I ruined her dream so I have no one to blame but myself." bulong niya saka kumagat ng sandwich.

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"Baby I'm just going to get some groceries okay? Behave." he said to her daughter busy playing her doll house. Sumakay siya sa kotse saka nagmaneho papunta sa supermarket. Tulak tulak niya ang cart habang binabasa ang listahan ng mga bibilhin. Thankfully, she still have time to write list of groceries.

May nabangga siyang cart kaya naman nagsorry siya agad ng hindi tumitingin rito. That owner of cart stopped his cart so Jeongyeon immediately apologized again. He has no strength to argue to anyone.

"Jeongyeon?" tawag nito kaya naman napalingon siya. "Rio?" he unsurely said. Masayang tumango naman si Rio saka nilapitan nito. "It's me! Oh my...hindi ko inaasahan na makikita kita ulit." sabi nito. Napangiti naman si Jeongyeon. After years, she saw Rio again. Maayos naman ang kalagayan nila bago pa man magpakasal si Nayeon at Jeongyeon.

All of a sudden, he missed those times...the freedom..

To be continued...