Maybe This Time

THOUGHTS

Heart racing, palms sweating; the butterflies trying to break free. Everyone has felt that feeling where a special someone makes you feel like you can fly. That feeling of telling them finally that you have a thing for them and you hope they feel the same for you. Well, it's happening to my best friend as I speak. He's finally had the courage to confess to the girl he's been in love with for over 3 years.

Everything I described is what he is feeling right at the moment. I don't know what will happen, either he finally has a girlfriend or I'm stuck the whole night watching re-runs of the football games and drinking the night away.

I'm in the car waiting, the anticipation is making me nervous for him. But I'm happy for him, he's got the balls for something I could never do. I've been in love with my best friend for half my life. Let's not get confused on which best friend. I have two, one's in the house spilling his heart out to the girl of his dreams and the other is at home watching her chick flicks, who sent me a selfie of her with her jammies on.

I always ask myself why her? Why is this brown haired, braced-faced, brown eyed girl the one I fell for? She is no where near perfect and just she's plain weird. She's such a flawed girl... but yet, maybe that's why I love her. She's not perfect...

She's weird but who doesn't love weird right? She's someone I feel I have to protect. The way her smile brightens my day or how she makes me genuinely laugh. Her grip on my arm as we walk down the endless night.

She's just so perfect to me. I guess I answered my question... but I believe that unexpected love are the best kinds of love. I never expected to fall for someone who I never saw myself with yet alone deserve. I guess in that way, she completes the little bit of the missing piece I always yearned for, wholefulness.

I always felt something is missing in my life and with her, I've never felt so complete. It's so cliche, I know but, I don't ever want to lose this feeling. Because I know it in my heart, I'm in love with her.

I text her goodnight. I smile. Even though I want to be there next to her, I just want her to know she went through my mind. I take a deep breath and exhaled. This waiting around really got me thinking. I heard a door shut.

I see Chanse walking towards the car and I start the engine. He had no expression whatsoever. He sat in the passenger seat. I stare at him, waiting for a reaction...

"So...." I dragged. He looked at me with big eyes and just nod.

"No way...you guys together now?" I smiled big.

"Yeah bro! She felt the same way for me for a while now!" He smiled wide.

"Shit! That's great news bro! Get in here man!" I give him a hug. "So what now?" I continued.

"Let's get out of here, her dad's gonna come out soon. I'll see her tomorrow." He buckles his belt, the smile still on his face.

We left the place, heart racing, palms sweating. If he could do it, I could...can I? Crap...