I Can't Break Down My Walls

When I Break (I Keep Smiling)

I keep smiling when I break
Cause I can't fuckin show my pain
I know she'll never feel the same
So I keep smiling, I keep smiling

I keep smiling when I break
The ashes fall like pouring rain
From the bridges burnt by my mistakes
So I keep smiling, I keep smiling

"Fake it til I make it" I tell myself way too often
I have all these lines that I set and I keep crossin
"Today's the day that I tell her" I say that shit every day
But the moment that I try, all my words, they just fall away

I'm scared that if I tell her she'll say yes and be my home
Cause then it's something real that I can lose and I'll be left to roam
But I'm also scared that if I don't my fate will be set in stone
That my worst fears will come along and I will be left alone
So at the end of the day I'll still be singing this song

I keep smiling when I break
Cause I can't fuckin show my pain
I know she'll never feel the same
So I keep smiling, I keep smiling

I keep smiling when I break
The ashes fall like pouring rain
From the bridges burnt by my mistakes
So I keep smiling, I keep smiling

I keep smiling and saying "Yeah, everything's alright"
But I know one day it'll be too hard to fight this fight
Telling myself"If I ignore it then the pain will go away"
But every time I see her I just don't know what to say

I should just tell her so that I can get rid of this hurt
Cause the pain of never knowing just feels so much worse
Rejection would break my heart but at least that pain can heal
I've felt that pain before so I'll know just how to deal
But I know that I won't tell her the way that I truly feel because

I keep smiling when I break
Cause I can't fuckin show my pain
I know she'll never feel the same
So I keep smiling, I keep smiling

I keep smiling when I break
The ashes fall like pouring rain
From the bridges burnt by my mistakes
So I keep smiling, I keep smiling