Once you were mine
Not yet part of this world but mine
Once I dreamt of you
Of who you would be
Would you be like him
Or be like me
I didn't know you would leave
That you would go
Before you would ever came
Before you would even show
I didn't know what you would take
Once you left me
I wasn't aware it'd be my heart
My soul
My passion
A piece of me
But you went so fast
It was over before it ever started
Now it should be distant
Now that it's in the past
But it's not
And what you left
I haven't forgot
A longing
A need
A desire
An angsty desire
Like hole it burns like empty fire
Like a hole, I am empty
I am bitter and I am angry
I am alone
Alone in a world filled with thousands like you
And they make me angrier
Because they are not you
They are not you
They are not mine
They are not of me
Or of him
Why?
Why should they get to keep them
When I couldn't have you
Why should they have joy
When I only have morose
And when I see them
Their pictures
Their post's
Their joy
I am filled with a bittersweet rage
I am jealous
I am angry
I am sad
I am empty
But more so
I am lonely
Because I couldn't have you
I am disappointed
Because I couldn't keep you
And even more so
I can't replace you
I feel as though I'm drowning
Suffocated not by water
But by need
By this ludicrous need
A need I haven't the capacity, or strength
To feed
What a beautiful calamity
What a violent serenity
I find
Lost in my thoughts of you
Of the what was "once true."
