I'm literally so depressed. I have no idea why, I just feel.. sad. I feel like there's no point in living. I'm not suicidal, I don't want to die. I just don't see a point in continuing with my life. Like, I wanna trade with someone else. There's nothing wrong with my life, not really. I have two parents who are alive and well, a brother who loves me, and a sister who's having her baby today. My brothers girlfriend is a nice person, I just don't think they're a good match. My sisters fiancé is a really good fit for her, I'm so excited for their baby boy to get here and for them to get married. I have a few friends that love me and care about me, and I have a boyfriend that I really care about. I just wish that I felt happy. Maybe I do, I just don't realize it. Maybe I'm not sad and it's all in my head. Maybe I just want attention. I don't even know anymore. What I do know, is that I just want to feel something. I don't even think about hurting myself, I don't think about trying to take my life. That's in the past. But maybe a little scratch won't hurt? Yes it will, shut the fuck up Bitch. I just want to feel something. Anything. I just.. I need something to do, maybe? Like, take a walk and enjoy the fresh air. Or eat my fucking feelings away and gain two hundred pounds. I don't know, but I should do something. Fuck my life. Fuck it hard.
