Am I Good Enough Now?

Thanks... But No Thanks

I really don't want your help

It makes me feel weak

Like I can't fend for myself

I know I say I hate feeling alone

But to be honest

I feel awkward when you say

"I'll help you"

But can't you see!

I would rather die

Than get better

Screw it

I'm fine with pretending a little longer

I'm fine with shedding more tears

Just keep your mouth shut

Maybe for another year?

I want to get through this

BY MYSELF

I feel like a child

When you say you'll help

I REALLY DON'T WANT IT!

I'm fine with this

Really I am.

Don't call me beautiful

Don't call me perfect

Don't say you can help

Because you can't

I'm either winning this battle

On my own

Or I'm going to die in the process

And to be even more honest

That's fine with me

Don't help me

I don't want it

I say I want your help

But then

When someone found out

I really wish they would just forget it

I let you down

I'm sorry

Thank...

But no thanks.