#10 Entry
I h a v e t o s a y G o o d b y e. .
"Hi." Remember these two letters you spoke that day? I wish you hadn't said it; I wish you held it back.
"Yuki." Remember the first time you said my name? I wish you didn't do it; I wish you held it back.
"How are you?" Remember the first question that you asked? I wish you hadn't said it; I wish you held it back.
"What's up?" Remember that first conversation that we had? I wish I was offline that time and wish you held those words back.
"This is me." Remember the first serious conversation in real life that we had? I wish I noticed myself getting all curious on your existence; I wish I held my words back.
"Let's go somewhere." Remember the first time you asked me out? I wish I said NO and refused talking to you; I wish I held it back.
"Is that you?" Remember the first time you asked me about myself? I wish I hadn't utter any words back then; I wish I didn't introduced myself to you; I wish I held my words back then.
"Are you ok?" Remember the first time that you literally shown concern on me? I wish you didn't do that, coz maybe I can still stop myself from liking you. I wish you held those words back.
"I like that too." Remember the first time we agreed on something? We have different beliefs yet we agree on one thing. I want to take that back; I wish I held it back.
"Go to sleep." Remember that one sentence order you always said everytime we stayed up talking till 3 am? I wish I forced myself to sleep early those days. I wish I missed all your calls that day.
"...." Remember the first night that we didn't talk? I was feeling sad--no, I'm lonely. You called, I wish you didn't did that. I wish I didn't held my hopes that high.
"...." Remember that first week that we had no single communication? I was lonely. I wish you called coz that time, I'm expeting you'll call--but you didn't.
"...." It's almost months but it felt ages since I heard a thing from you. I'm lonely. I've been feelin' pretty low on the first days but I got used to it. Remember when I said in a playful manner that "I like you"? I guess you wouldn't remember it, but I wish you would coz that'll be the last time. I have to say goodbye. My thoughts have been dwelling on you lately and I'm sick of it.I have to say goodbye and help myself to get better. You've been alive on the pieces that I wrote and it's not helping me to forget you.
I have to say goodbye and stop wishing for you to comeback.
I wish I had said it earlier. I wish I could undo everything, every memories that we had; but having such thoughts would make me a hypocrite, so instead I'll say Thank You and Good Bye.
Farewell, My dear Dude.
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RomanceI'll keep writing about you until my mind grew tired of remembering.