The NBSB's Sweetest Downfall

Special Chapter #3 / Original Version 2013

Nicole's POV

"Do I look stunning at all?" kinakabahang tanong 'ko kay Bryan.

Well, I know I look stunning, beautiful, captivating and most of all, perfect! I know I look perfect. Pero hindi 'ko feel. I am getting edgy and I hate it. Bakit parang bumaba ang self confidence 'ko? Nakakapangit pa naman iyon. So why am I feeling ugly and all? Why can't I feel like I'm the most pretty woman in the world?

Maybe because it's his family that we are about to meet. And I feel not good enough for them.

Bryan cleared his throat. "You bought that dress?"

Their celebration of Chinese New Year is extravagant. It is the most important holiday for them. Ito 'rin ang unang beses 'kong makilala ang pamilya ni Brent sa side ng dad niya. Kinakabahan talaga ako at masyadong importante ito sa'kin. And that's fucking insane! I mean, come on! Why do I feel jittery? E, maganda naman ako!

"Yeah," sagot 'ko. "What the hell's wrong with it?" inis na tanong 'ko dahil parang hindi niya ata nagustuhan. I don't get it.

I am wearing a red lace trailing party dress. Chinese Mandarin collar dress ito at backless. I found it sexy when I saw it so, ito na lang ang pinili 'ko. Kasama 'ko si Mia noong binili 'ko ito dahil masyadong nang busy si Bryan para magpayaman sa kasal namin next year.

Maganda ang dress. It actually looks good on me. Pinaayos 'ko pa kasi ang buhok 'ko sa isang salon, nagpa-make up 'rin ako para lang dito. I don't usually do that dahil maganda naman ako at natural nang maganda ako. 'Yung buhok 'ko, greek inspired up-do siya and I bought a tiara and a flower for the final touch. Tapos simpleng make-up lang naman siya. Isa siyang Chinese make-up na lalong nagpasingkit sa'kin. In-extend ang eyeliner. I wore an elegant and small pearl earrings. Tapos nag-add lang ako ng gray eye contacts.

Maganda na ako.

Lalo pa akong nagpaganda! Edi I'm beyond perfect na! But I don't get why my soon to be husband looks unsatisfied!

"Wala naman," mahinang sagot niya.

Napataas ang maganda at perfect 'kong kilay. "Seriously, don't give me that damn answer. Para kang babae. You say nothing's wrong when you make me feel that there is something wrong."

"Wala nga," sagot niya pero nakatingin siya sa'kin. Para akong tangang napahinto sa titig niyang 'yun. Well, truth be told, when your relationship has been more than a year...you get too comfortable with each other that sometimes you forget how special your partner is.

Minsan sa isang relasyon, masyado tayong nagiging kumportable to the point na nakakalimutan na natin na pwede pa'ring mawala sa'tin 'yung taong 'yun. So you'd have to give importance with what you feel towards him or her.

"Sour cream," paalala 'ko sakanya dahil sa mga titig niya. "We're gonna be late if you'd stare at me for too long." Napangiti siya sa sinabi 'ko. And I feel warm inside every time he stares at me with too much emotions. Para akong kinikilig and I know I'm never too old for that.

He gave me a smile. Naglakad siya nang kaunti palapit sa'kin. "You look too perfect actually," he replied.

"I don't get why you looked unsatisfied a while ago," sagot 'ko naman.

He holds my hand and it is like the first time. Minsan kasi, hindi mo naman mararamdaman na kinikilig ka kasi araw araw kayong magkasama. Kasi, it takes a lot of efforts to stay in love with your partner. Hindi naman porke't mahal mo, e, hahayaan mo lang na nandiyan siya kasi alam mong hindi ka niya iiwan. Sometimes you need to make efforts for him or her, babae man o lalaki, kailangan mong ipakita at iparamdam na mahal mo siya. So that your love will always stay in your heart.