*Chapter 9: Naiisip mo ba ako habang natutulog ka?*
How can it be?
Na sa isang iglap nalang, biglang.. Boom.
Nasa loob na ako ng hospital. And the worst part of it, it's my boyfriend who's wearing the hospital gown and not just 'someone'. Is this some kind of a bullcrap? Or maybe a dream? Because if it is, then wake me up! It's hell here.
Nagtatawanan lang kami lagi nitong si Bryan. Masaya. Asaran. He saw my different sides. My attitudes and my... perfection. This is so cliche! And you know how much I hated cliche! Pero anong magagawa ko? Eh sa bigla nalang siyang natamaan ng sasakyan. Alangan naman, ibalik ko yung oras? Eh hindi naman ako Diyos para gawin 'yun. Bullshit. Bullshit. Just freaking wake me up! Right now.
I'm starting to think that everything's meant to happen. Because it also happened to me almost ten years ago. Lahat ng images ng mga nangyari noon ay nag-flash sa isip ko. I was agitated and scared. It wasn't just loneliness, it was pain.
"He is in a deep state of unconsciousness."
"Oh my goodness.." Rinig kong bulong ng mommy niya saka ito niyakap nang mahigpit ni Mr. Lopez.
Perry's eyes watered. I know. I should be sad pero wala akong maramdaman kundi galit. Whatever's happening right now is her fault. Her. Fault. Imagine?! Everything was perfect! Almost.. At dahil sa hindi ko malaman lamang katangahan niya, we were all suffering! It's her fault, right? She should be the one who got hit by the car. Not Bryan. Not him.
"Is he in a permanent vegative state?" Mr. Lopez asked the doctor.
Mayroong hawak hawak na mga papel ang doktor.
"I can't say that for now. He is not responding to the pain. He does not take voluntary actions.."
Oh damn this freaking doctor! Sabihin mo na kasi ang sasabihin mo! I know what he's saying.
Bryan is on a coma. Comatose! Hindi nagigising ang pasyente. Hindi ito nag-rerespond sa pain, sa ilaw or sa tunog.. He cannot react with the surrounding environment! Yeah, yeah, I've read it all!
"We did the GCS or Glasgow Coma Scale and it seems like he is really on a coma. That's why we've decided to use a CT scan to assess the severity of brain damage.." Tumigil ang doctor. "We also found out that he has diabetes. There is a tendency that this will affect him. If the patient's sugar level rise too much he will have hyperglycemia which can worsen his health." Pagpapaliwanag noong doctor. "Do not lose hope, I'll talk to you as soon as possible."
Umiyak ang mommy ni Bryan. And there was he, Mr. Lopez, rubbing his wife's back. There's no emotion in his eyes. He's very manly — tough, strong. Too strong. Tinignan ko si Brent na mayroong concern sa mga mata. He was looking at his older brother.
Halos pareho ang nangyari almost ten years ago..
The only difference is that it was only me who was crying, who was sad. And the rest? Well, they didn't care.
Sobrang stressed ako sa loob ng one week na hindi gumigising si Bryan. Whenever I wake up, it feels so December. I hate that month. Wala siyang ginawa kundi ipa-alala sakin kung gaano kasama at ka-unfair ang buhay.
"Can, eat this.. I bought this for you. It's your favorite. Kanina ka pa nagbabantay. Hindi kaya napapagod ka na?"
Yan ang lagi kong naririnig tuwing nasa loob ako ng kwarto ni Bryan. Saksak sa likod at sa puso ang ginagawa sakin ng Daddy niya. He's giving me a silent and cold treatment. Gusto kong mag-wala pero masyado akong nanghihina. Lagi kong pinapaalala sa sarili ko na wala si Bryan, walang magtatanggol sakin. Magulang niya 'to. Hindi niya magugustuhan kung magagalit ako sakanila.
BINABASA MO ANG
The NBSB's Sweetest Downfall
HumorCompleted in 2013 but retelling in 2022. New version will be different and a lot more matured, reader discretion is advised.
