Chapter 20

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2 months later:
3pm

Austin's pov:
Her wavy, chestnut brown long hair perfectly lies on her shoulders
pink-cheeked; fair complexion that glows with a hint of pink
Her lips pursed as she focuses on constructing the bunk bed
There was no mistaking the devotion in her beautiful blue eyes as she puts the bed together
She's so perfect in every way
I even love when she gets angry she looks sexy or when she smiles it brightens the whole room
Her laugh is contagious
You don't realise when you lose someone there your everything until you are nothing
I miss her small hands fitting perfectly in mine ...

I miss having sky as mine

Sky pov:

I know this is bad but I think I'm falling for Austin again but I still can't get over Luke he was my everything I love him so much once you lose someone you love you can't just instantly move on look how long it's took for me to stop crying myself to sleep.Every one tells me to move on BUT I CANT! and I won't I love Luke and I always will my heart is empty without he's presents. I've lost too many people I love to let someone else in and me feel empty when something bad happens I can't let that happen It's too much pain for me to deal with.
But when i see those hazel orbs look deep in my eyes I can't help my self from falling for him.

"Sky ...there's something I've been meaning to talk to you about" Austin says as I look up to him he's scratching the back of he's neck meaning he's nervous

Why is he nervous?

"What may that be?" I say in a soft voice as I get up from the floor and wipe myself down
"I...I'm in love with you"he blurt out
"What?"i barely whisper
"I said I'm in love with you I can't hold it in anymore I loved you even when you found out about me and maddie I didn't realise you were my everything till we were nothing and it's taken me a long time to say"he says as he looks deep into my eyes
"I'm sorry I can't ..."I say looking to the ground
I hear he's footsteps come closer to me he lifts my chin up with he's finger
"I know you love him but he wouldn't want you moping around all day because he's gone I know you will always love him and I respect that but it's time to move on he knows you love him and he's watching over you telling you to let go he'll never be forgotten in here" he says tapping on my heart
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU KNOW? You don't know shit! What me and Luke had was special and no one can change that ...your telling me you love me at the wrong time! When I would cry for hours
, days ,weeks even months where were you then Austin?! Huh...I'll tell you what you were doing you had your arms draped around my best friend ...so don't tell me no bullshit about you love me" tears streaming down my face, slowly  staining my cheeks.

"I didn't love her the way I loved you ...I always loved you sky...I always will,forever and always"
I collapse on the floor  and cry my heart out , I can't do this no more ...I just give up
Tears after tears fall down my face and Austin cuddled me tightly slowly rocking us back and forth
I finally stop crying and remove my arms from Austin
"There's something I need to do...on my own"i say to Austin he nods understanding my actions
I walk out the house and get into my car
I drive and drive till I get to my destination
I crouch down

"I will always love you Luke I'll never forget you your always have a place in my heart I know you look down on me but I don't want you tossing in your grave worrying I'll forget you because I'll never forget you my sweet baby "a tear slips from my eye "i .. it hurts so bad that your not here it kills me that you never got to hold your first born in your arms but I'll make sure she knows how loving and how sweet her father was ...she remind me of you " I smile at how similar angel is to Luke
"The way she yawns like you , how her smile can make the whole room light up and the way she acts sassy "I laugh at that memory of when Luke was being sassy just because I was teasing him by not kissing him when I was cooking breakfast for us all
"Her eyes are perfect but when I look at her I see a tanned girl version of you and me you don't know how happy you made me ...now it's time for me to move on like you wanted me too and I know you'll always be watching down on us and giving me advice in my dreams , kissing me good bye and us dancing in the moon light all night like we used to I promise I'll always visit you with angel
...i love you so much Luke Anthony Mark Brooks and I always will forever and always" I say as the words dripped off my lips. I blew him a kiss as I place he's favourite coloured flowers on the grave stone
I get up and walk to my car I look one last time and a tear slides down my face.
I get into my car and drive off back home
As I enter the house it's nearly 12am as soon as I place my keys on the island table every one get up from the living room couch and bombard me with questions
As I see Anastasia and Aiesha rubbing their eyes as they hold there favourite teddy as I assume angel is fast as sleep because she's a deep sleeper
I run up the stairs ignoring the others as I reach the top I hold Anastasia and Aiesha at each side of my waist
"Hey how come you two are still awake"I say as I plant a kiss on there foreheads heading to there room
"We were waiting for you mommy" Aiesha says yawning
"Where were you mommy"Anastasia says also yawning
"I just needed time to think"i say placing them in there bed
"What did you need to think about" Aiesha  says looking into my eyes
"I needed to tell Luke how much we miss him and how strong you two are" I say touching Aiesha's nose as she giggles as it's her weak spot
"Now you two go to sleep" I say as I kiss there cheeks
"Night and love you mommy" they say in unison
"Night and love you too my beautiful babies" I say as I blow them a kiss and they catch it

I walk down stairs to see everyone waiting for me to speak
"I went to see luke I'm sorry I walked out without none of you knowing and worrying about me but I just needed to see him...i needed to tell him how I feel on my own" I say as I look to the ground
They all run up to me and hug me tightly
"Group hug" Robert yells as he jumps up and down I giggle at Robert
"Shush guys the gir-
"GROUP HUG!!" I see Anastasia and Aiesha run up to us and join in we all start to laugh
"Ok guys go to bed now" I say to the girls as we release from the group hug
"Ok mommy" they say as they run up stairs

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