Recover & Forgivness Book 1 & 2

Forgivness Chapter 3

God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, or sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it. 

- unknown

Chapter 3

I read something in an article with a woman flipping a car for her child underneath it. her adrenal was so strong that she flipped the car and took we kid.

I chewed on my lip.

Would my mother do the same?

I read that article 15 years ago and that question goes un-answered.

I wondered if I would do that for... I didn't want to say her name. I didn't want to be thinking about her.

What if he did something to her?!

I closed my eyes.

Dear god,

Please don't let him hurt my baby

I thought

Please, if your real and you love me give me all the pain just shed light on my perfect daughter .

I took a deep breath and felt 

The warm sun on my cheek. Almost like it was a touch of reassurance.

We had been driving in the car for so long that I had forgotten Eugene was sleeping on me.

He lightly snored and his hair covered his eyes.

He was a cute sleeper.

He yawned and smiles at me.

" your so beautiful . I just want to wake up to your smile . "

I blushes and touched his cheek.

He stretched and touched his neck.

He groaned in pain making a twisted face.

" god my neck, remind me not to sleep in the back seat of a car love ."

He called me love.

I smiled and moving my body were he was laying on my chest.

I started rubbing his shoulders

He moaned.

" that's good.."

I heard Ruby chuckle

" You putting out already Jasmine?"

I rolled my eyes ignoring her comment and kept rubbing his shoulders .

I heard ruby yawn.

" Ruby it's 6 the morning and we have been driving since 4 in the afternoon yesterday. Lets stop at a hotel and sleep"

Eugene nodded

Ruby sighed

" there one a half of a mile from here. I will get off at the next exist ."

I touched Eugene warm cheeks.

" Better now "

He pressed his hands to mind on his cheek and looked up at me.

" Much."

I giggled and laid back. I slowly started to drift into sleep,until I started to sleep.

I dreamt of her eyes. her voice calling for me. Like she was searching for me.

I tired to call out but my mouth was duck taped shut

I tried to scream but it just came as a low muffle.

I felt his cold hands on my cheek. Hit tears streamed down my cheeks.

" shh"

He said in my ear

" we will be a family soon "

I tried to scream but I couldn't.

I heard his laugh.

" NOOO!"

I shouted .

Eugene jumped.

It was a dream.

We were laying in a small twin sized bed.

We were in the hotel .

He rubbed my arm

" bad dream"

He sounded worried and you could hear the tired in his voice.

I stood up and went to the bathroom

Closing the door.

This isn't healthy.

Not for me or Lexi.

I sighed.

Lexi...

There was a knock at the door

" jasmin?"

It was Eugene

I washed my hands and opened the door.

He had a very worried look

" what?"

He held up an envelope. It was slipped under the door by a girl.

I started to cry and dropped to my knees.

He held me and let me cry into his shirt. I cried for what felt like years.

I finally broke down and this time there was someone to help pick up the pieces.

He was there for me and it felt nice.

He wiped my cheeks and hissed my forehead.

" it's okay I'm here"

I sobbed

" I can't do it. I can't read it"

He kissed my cheeks and he read aloud.

Dear Mommy,

Daddy says we will be a family soon. 

I love you

- Lexi

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