Recover & Forgivness Book 1 & 2

Forgivness Chapter 1

Chapter 1

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~Pologue~

When i was a little girl I read a story. It was my favorite story. The painted drum. I thought this woman was the most brilliant author in the world. Every time I was hurt or upset, I would read this quote,

""Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could." -― Louise Erdrich

Her words gave me hope and strengh but now...

Its all bullshit.

Chapter 11

There's always a breaking point for every person.

Some people would say that," tears wash away your pain. "Some people say " Tears show weakness." Those people where wrong. What I say is ," People cry not because they are weak and not because it washes away your tears. People cry - I cry because i've been strong for too long." I never knew why bad things happened to good people.

Well, I never knew why bad things happened to me. I guess God, had plans for me. I cried in Ruby's arms for what felt like weeks,months,years, a eternity. I was so angry. Not at what Jeremy had done. Not what Adam had done.

But God.

He took away my child at birth. She was so small and pure and full of innocents. No matter what her mother was or father. She was the true victim of this train wreck.

I held her once and I looked into her eyes. Her warm blue eyes and saw something that said," Everything would be all right." Maybe it was my mistake for thinking I could hit the " Re-start" Button. She looked so much like Me. Like, she was a better me...maybe. It just hurts knowing that shes just gone and I'm alone again.

" So Jasmin this is our 5th meeting. How are we doing ?"

I sighed.

" I still have nightmares Dr. Miller."

He nods and writing in his notebook

What does he write in the damn notebook? It, drives me crazy.

" Jasmin ?"

I look up

" What dream have you been having ?"

I flinched

" mmmhmm."

He looks down and writes in his notebook again.

This room was so depressing. Gray walls, gray furniture and one window. Not even a single plant in sight. How am I going to be safe and relaxed?

I feel like I'm in a jail cell.....I closed my eyes. I didn't want to remember what went on in the jail cell. I just couldn't believe it. It just happened so fast. If only I didn't close my eyes and really payed attention.