everyone's asleep
it's like 2:30 in the morning and here i am
alone
and awake
and usually when im alone at this time because i stayed up so late
im in the bathroom crying and cutting
or just crying into a pillow
or having a panic attack
or some bad shit is going down
but tonight (well kinda)
i feel okay.
im not feeling suicidal
im not feeling depressed
or sad
or any of that
im actually...
//
//
happy?
//
//that sounds so weird
im never happy
wow
the only reason im happy
is because i talked to him until he fell asleep
and he told me things
and for once, i believed them
and i felt like someone cared about me
a lot
i actually think i do like him
a lot
i wish i didn't (not being offensive)
i just wish i didn't fall in "love" so easily and so hard
it honestly hurts my heart every second i can't talk to him
but i am glad that i did get to talk to him
he makes me happy.
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What Cannot Be Verbally Expressed
PoetryThis is just a collection of the certain things I've been wishing I can say, but somehow can't. Or at least, not verbally.