What Cannot Be Verbally Expressed

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here i am, desperately trying to fall asleep because i'm tired of thinking.

every time i think, i end up overthinking and then my head hurts.

but i guess that's okay.

maybe everyone has a certain time that they're meant to go to sleep.

maybe every individual person has a certain time that their eyes will want to close and their mind will want to rest.

maybe that's not true either.

the only thing keeping me awake are the clicking sounds of the keyboard and the loud rock music i have playing.

both earbuds in,

highest possible volume,

as always.

(go listen to Numb - Linkin Park)

but maybe we all do have certain times we're meant to go to bed.

because it sure seems like i'm programmed that way.

sometimes i'll stay awake until 4:00am and admit that i'm not tired,

but somehow i always end up being sound asleep by 4:30.

most of the time.

other times, i stay awake until the sun reveals itself.

and once the sun is out,

i'm not even the slightest bit tired.

(now go listen to Do I Wanna Know? - Arctic Monkeys)

i'm torn between wanting to talk to someone and having an endless conversation,

and pulling a blanket over my head and falling asleep.

i don't know which one to decide.

(and then listen to Pumped Up Kicks - Foster the People)

i don't feel the slightest bit tired,

but i still want to sleep.

but only if i can have you here with me.

(and lastly, go listen to Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol)

goodnight.