Truce To Love

TTL ~ IV

TTL ~ IV

Memories..

Memories would be my only remembrance of them. Iyon na lang ang tanging mapanghahawakan ko ngayon na wala na sila.

All our happy memories, our bonding moments, even the sad ones, I will treasure all of them.

I won't be moving on from our memories.. because eventhough it brought me pain, that's my only hold of them. Thus, I would move forward and hope that someday, I'll remember their passing away with unheavy heart and acceptance.

"Kuya, nakapag- I love you naman ako sa'yo, hindi ba? I have said it a lot of times.. and I'm glad I did. Dahil kung hindi, hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko." Lumuluhang saad ko habang nakatayo sa libingan ng aking kapatid.

I never thought this day would come. Na tatayo ako sa puntod ng aking kapatid. I know that death is inevitable. Ngunit hindi ko inisip na mangyayari to kay Kuya Serge at Ate Apple.

I thought we would grow old together. Akala ko kahit magkapamilya ako at magkaanak, nandiyan parin siya at aalalay sa akin.

I must be insane to think that our life was eternal. Akala ko kasi.. parati lang siyang nasa tabi ko.

Napakuyom ako sa aking kamay. My heart would never stop hurting. This grief and loneliness, it's so hard to take.

"Sera.." I heard someone called.

Naramdaman ko ang pagtabi niya sa akin.

Hindi ako umalis agad pagkatapos ng libing. Pinauna ko na si Zeejay at Winsley kahit na gusto pa nila akong samahan dito.

"He called me the night before the accident." Kuya William said calmly. I could hear the melancholy in his voice.

"Nagulat nga ako kasi hindi naman siya madalas tumawag. Kuntento na kami sa pamin-minsang chat. Alam mo naman 'yang kuya mo. Tatawag lang para mang-inis." He breathed heavily. "Nangamusta lang siya.. 'tas tinanong ako kung naka move-on na ba."

Patuloy lang akong nakinig sa kanya. He was my brother's bestfriend since his college years. Sobrang close nila.

Kaya't nang makaranas ng napakasakit na heartbreak si Kuya William, nandoon lang si Kuya para sa kanya. Kuya William's girlfriend died because of a heart problem. Hindi lang 'yon, he was cheated, too.

"He said he wants me to let go of the past and move on. That he wants me to be happy. I don't know, I got scared that moment. Feeling ko, he's bidding his goodbye. Dinaan ko sa biro ang lahat ng gabing 'yon. And I told him I would come home dahil gusto ko siyang makita."

My tears continued to run down my cheeks. Napakagat ako sa labi upang pigilan ang paghagulhol.

"I think I regretted going away. I should have stayed here. Ni hindi man lang kami nakapagbonding bago siya nawala." He was chuckling but I could hear his sob.

He chose to leave to mend his broken heart. And I know, Kuya gave him support in that decision of his.

"Naiintindihan ka niya, kuya." mahinang sagot ko.

"You think?" He asked.

Napatitig ako sa kanya at nasalubong ang naluluha niyang mga mata. I could imagine his pain right now. Hindi pa gaanong naghihilom ang sugat sa kanya ng pagkawala ng kanyang kasintahan. At ngayon naman ay si kuya.

We really all have our own heartbreaks and problems. Sometimes, we're just too caught up with our own sorrows that we forgot about others.

"Sabagay, si Serge 'tong pinag-uusapan natin. He always forgives. That's how he is." Tumatangong aniya sa akin. Then, he stared at me seriously. "Sera, if ever you need some help.. Don't hesitate to call me. I can be a brother for you. Para na rin kitang kapatid. Tutulungan kita anuman ang kailangan mo."