Do I love a bad boy ?

Chapter 20

|| Austins POV ||

I shot up and started bawling . I can't stand this . I cant live my life knowing if she's okay or not . That was the worst nightmare .. Ever ..

• flashback •

Keegan is laying on mattress and she is tied down . With nothing on .

" KEEGAN ! " I yelled but she couldn't hear me . No one could .

" You do such a good job . I can't believe mahone cheated on you . I would fuck you every chance I get." The guy said

" Leave her alone you fucker ! " I yelled

" Ready for round 2 ? " the guy said smirking .

" AUSTIN ! " She screamed

I killed me .. Knowing I can't help her..

" Mahone isn't here . He went home to live his life without you . " he said getting close to her face .

He continued on . And I witnessed the girl I love .. Get raped .

• End of flashback •

I couldn't stop crying .. It's just a dream Austin . It's not a dream . There nightmares .

" Austin calm down . " Alex said rubbing my back .

" There just dreams Austin . " Alexis said

I shook my head no and kept crying.

Eventually I laid down and they did too . I closed my eyes and this time.

I had a good dream .

• next morning •

I got up from my bed and went downstairs .

" Good morning Austin . Do you know what today is ? " she said

" No . " I said grabbing a bowl .

" It's Keegans birthday . " she said

Tears burned the rims of my eyes .

" She's 17 now she is as old as you." My mom said

" WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU TELL ME THAT ! " I yelled turning around .

" I just figured you would want to know .. " she said quietly .

" YES I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW THAT THE GIRL I LOVE WHO IS WHO THE HELL KNOWS WHERE THAT IM NEVER GONNA SEE HER AGAIN TURNS 17 TODAY ! " I yelled

I walked to the front door and slammed it as I walked outside .

I sat on the porch and just thought .

" Austin .. " I heard my mom say .

" What ? " I barked .

" I know you hurting .. But that doesn't mean you should take it out on us . I just figured you would want to know .. " she said

" I'm sorry mom .. I just miss her so much and it hurts when people talk about her .. " I said leaning against the railing .

" I know Austin . " she said rubbing my back and I walked inside .

I stopped in the door way of the kitchen and dropped . I couldn't hold in it anymore . I've held in since last night .

I started bawling and my mom ran to me .

" Shh Austin .. It'll be okay .. " she said hugging me .

" No it won't .. " I said standing up .