I woke up to the sun shining in my eyes. Crap, I forgot to close my blinds last night. Oh my God last night. Matt. I sat up fast as the memories of last night flashed through my mind. I started to cry again as I fell back onto my bed and stared at the ceiling as my tears began to blur my vision.
I should have seen it coming. People don't just change.
I closed my eyes and fell asleep again.
I'm not sure how long I was asleep for, but I woke up to someone knocking on my bedroom door. I opened my eyes slowly and stared at the door for a second. More knocking.
"What?" I said softly.
"Nicki, it's 5 in the afternoon, you've been sleeping way too long." came Jake's concerned voice.
"Go away." I mumbled.
"Nicki," Jake said again. I didn't say anything. He tried to open my bedroom door but it was locked. I heard him walk away. I turned over and reached for my phone on my night stand.
I turned it on. I ignored every call, every voicemail, every text message and any other form of communication that was labeled 'Matt.' I saw a million calls from Kristen as well. I didn't feel like answering. I didn't feel like doing anything really. Except for crying. And sleeping - it made me forget. And so that's what I did. Next thing I knew, it was Sunday afternoon. I slept for more than a day. I hadn't left my room. I hadn't talked to anyone - except for a few words with Jake.
Again, I had woken up to Jake's constant knocking.
"Nicki, if you don't open the door, I swear I'll knock it down." Jake said firmly. I got up slowly. I was hungry anyway. Not eating for 24 hours does that to you. I opened the door to Jake's stunned face. I guess he didn't think I would open in it. I glanced at him and then walked passed him. He turned and followed me down the stairs.
When I got downstairs I poured a bowl of cereal and began eating it silently. I stared at the bowl, completely zoned out, but I could feel Jake's eyes on me.
"Nicki it's - it's not your fault." Jake said. Was this his way of soothing me? I continued to eat my cereal and I ignored this statement. I scooped the last spoonful into my mouth. I put my plate in the sink and walked towards the stairs.
"Nicki." Jake said again. "You can't just lock yourself in your room forever." I turned to him.
"I don't know what else to do." I said quietly, starting to tear up again.
"Nicki, you'll get through this." he said softly.
"No. No, I can't handle -" my voice cracked so I didn't continue. I shook my head. Tears were falling faster now. I have never been a cry-er. What is happening to me? I turned and ran up the stairs before Jake could say anymore. I took a shower and went back to sleep.
I opened my eyes to the worst-feeling Monday ever. I don't want to go to school. I don't want to see Matt. I don't want to think about any of this. Reluctantly, I got up and got ready.
When I got downstairs I was met with the sight of my parents.
"Nicole, it's good to see you." my mother said too formally. "How was everything while we were gone?" she asked. I shook my head. Breakfast wasn't worth this conversation so I just went to Jake's car and waited for him there. My mom stared after me, confused at my silence.
The ride to school was silent. I don't think Jake knew what to say and I definitely wasn't in the mood to talk.
"I'll see you later." I said quietly to Jake as I left him to head towards my locker. He just nodded. I opened my locker slowly and did what I needed to do. Everything felt much slower. Much more depressing.
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Didn't Mean to Fall in Love
Teen FictionNicole Davidson is practically perfect. Unfortunately, her parents cannot see this and the pressure they put on her pushes her over the edge. To get back at them she decides to date the baddest bad boy she knows - but just to make her parents mad. D...