L I S A
When I reached the rooftop I've noticed that there was a person standing and observing the view
"What are you doing here?" I asked and I saw her stiffen
I went my way towards her and spun her around grabbing both of her shoulders
Another memory just hit me, what is that? I wanted to have answers to these flashbacks that I'm having lately as I think I'm going crazy
I stepped and stepped until I got a clear view of the person standing in there and that was when I noticed the quiet sobs she was trying to make and the slight shake of her body from crying
"Jennie?" I asked the person and she stiffen, that was when I confirmed that she indeed was Jennie
She wiped her tears away before looking at me like she was not having a breakdown just few seconds ago
And why does being inside this company feels like my body have its own life
So I went towards her and pulled her for an embrace, she did not protest though instead she wrapped her arms around my waist and buried her face on my chest as she sobbed and sobbed
I wrapped my arms around her too and caress her back hoping that it could bring some comfort to her. It pains me seeing her in pain
She was trying to protest at first but i held her firm, after a while she stopped fighting and started to sob
"I don't even know you" She said between her cries
Another flashback, these flashbacks are seriously trying to kill me silently, I wanted answers but I think it would not be easy to look for
Jennie was still crying when someone I knew disturbed us
Jisoo
"L-lisa?" she called question me stuttering, that was weird
So I let Jennie go and faced her
"Hey" I said to her, she was truly shocked at first but she was able to regain her composure immediately
"Jennie, you were supposed to meet the new model but I guess that isn't much needed now" Jisoo said before she exited the rooftop
"Lisa?" Jennie called me and I swear the way she called my voice brings a pang in my chest for some unknown reason
"Hmm?" I asked her back in reply
"You'll be working here again?" she asked me
"Again? Have I worked here before?" I asked her back and for a moment I saw a flicker of anxiety that crossed her eyes but just for a moment
And then another memory flashback through me
"That's not a problem Lisa, I could just hire you..." she said but I cut her off
"No don't" I said and it made her confused "I mean I do want to be part of your company but I'll have the natural way..."
"Jennie" I called her and she looked at me
"Be honest with me" I pleaded to her and the way she was looking at me might make me die
"We were more than classmates back then aren't we?" I asked her and she looked down, trying to avoid my gaze at all cost
I did not know what was inside me but when she was trying to avoid me it did step on me. That way I step towards her and she backs away
I step and step and step and she backs away backs away backs away
Until we can no longer take steps as she have been cornered into a wall, both of my hands at the side of her head
"I want to cook for you too but I'll probably burn your house" I said and laughed
"Okay so I'll make sure you want come near the stove" she said and she faced her
My hands were now both trapping her in between my body and the stove
"What are you doing to me Je-"
The flashback that I was getting came with the most painful headache that I've ever experienced
I drop on to my knees as both of my hands flew to my head trying to at least lessen some of the pain that the flashback was accompanied
It was hurting so bad that I though my head would explode
J E N N I E
"We were more than classmates back then aren't we?" she asked me and looked down, trying to avoid her gaze at all cost
She step and step and step and I back away back away back away
Until we can no longer take steps as I have been cornered into a wall, both of her hands at the side of my head
My heart was pounding so hard and fast that I didn't know what to do
Should I answer her question but what if I've been hidden to her all the time since I'll be the one that would bring her pain
I was about to tell a lie when I noticed that she was not looking at me anymore instead she was blinking hardly and rapidly
"Lisa?" I called her but she was not paying attention to me and then suddenly she dropped down onto her knees
I panicked, I also drop onto my knees and desperately trying to call her, in hopes that she could get out of her trance
"Lisa Lisa Lisa" I called her but she was still pulling her hair and crying and shouting from the pain she was experiencing
And so was I, I was crying because seeing her in pain breaks me too and I want to take every pain that she was dealing with if I can
I embraced her while she was crying and she did started to calm down a little while she sob on me
But I again come into a conclusion that I was not really someone good for her, I seem to only bring her pain
Maybe running away from her won't do me any good but it will surely do her good
Plus I'll be engaged on about 5 months from now and she will be married in god knows what day
Sooner or later we would have to end our connection and I think today is the best time
She fell asleep on my embrace and while embracing her I was crying
Crying because for a fact that I know, this would be the last time I will be holding Lisa in my arms probably even last time seeing her in person
I kissed the top of her head
"Remember that I will always love you. This is real goodbye now my one and only love" I said as I cried harder and harder
Goodbye Lalisa Manoban
Goodbye my first and my forever greatest lover
