L I S A
"Let's end our relationship here" Jennie said and I was lost
"what?" I asked, slowly letting go of my embrace with her
"you heard me, don't make me say it twice" she said and it was like my mind was stripped off of any thing that I could say
"please say something" Jennie pleaded
"why?" I asked her and she remained silent
"why?!" I repeated again this time more harsher
"because I don't love you anymore!" she shouted at me, breaking my heart into pieces
"you don't mean that, please look at me in my eyes and tell me that again" I asked her
she closed her eyes for a second before connecting it with mine
"I don't love you anymore Lisa" she said to me, starring straight into my eyes
and that was when I realized that I'm making it harder for her
Maybe we were just too fast at everything that I did not realized that I was slowly suffocating her
my tears started to cascade down my face
I'll let go this time
but I'll promise that I will return
A person who is worthy enough of her love
Because this time I lost
"okay" I said as I slowly got up from the bed
"I love you" I said as I gave her temple a long kiss while she closes her eyes
When I pulled away that was when I noticed that she too was crying but I don't want to comfort her while I was broken too
and with that I turned my back against her and proceeded to the door
When I was outside her penthouse that was the only time that I've noticed that it was crying
was the sky grieving for me too?
I walked with the rain
I was numb enough to feel that I was already shivering from the cold
I was numb enough that my clothes was completely drenched
I started my bike and drove with the rain, as I was thinking that it too was crying with me
I loved her
No
I love her and I think I would never stop
J E N N I E
Lisa left and when I looked at her when I said that I don't love her anymore she looked so lost
and it broke me too
I hate seeing Lisa being broken but I did that to her
but I just wanted to protect her, of course I love Lisa
she was my everything
But I wanted her to move on, forget about me and be happy
while I'll be back in my real life, life of hell. Lisa once gave me a hope that I'll be able to exit that place
but my hope is gone now, all broken because of me
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2 weeks have past since I broke up with Lisa but everyday I was hurting more and more
I hate it that I cannot do anything about it as someone was holding an upper hand
which I would not want to admit
