J E N N I E
Two weeks have passed since Lisa moved in here and ever since our relationship, friendship, flirtship?
Ok I made up flirtship but ever since our communication, clingyness had gradually improved
Though Lisa was not aware that I've develop this kind of feeling that every time I see her my heart beats madly, or every time she smiles at me my stomach tie in knots
I'm I inlove with Lisa? Is that the feeling of being inlove?
But there are still voices inside my head telling me that, she was just temporary or someone who'll just use me for money
Can you blame me though? Everyone around me stayed for a long time because of my money, well an exception to Jisoo though
"I'll be applying for work" Lisa said as we were having our breakfast
"Hmm, where?" I asked her in return
"At your company. Is it okay if I'll apply?" she asked
"You know I don't have experience and everything soo.." cutie
"That's not a problem Lisa, I could just hire you..." but she cut me off
"No don't" she said and it made me confused "I mean I do want to be part of your company but I'll have the natural way...
I want to be a worker there because I passed everything and not because you've hired me because we have connection" she said
And I smiled, she was so thoughtful
"Okay then, we'll talk more about it later"
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"Nini?" Lisa called me as we were snuggled up on the sofa watching a movie
"Hmm?" I replied
"Wanna go out later?" she asked me but it was the first time I had a doubt with Lisa
Because of the voice inside of me
"Maybe next time Lisa" I said and she just stayed quiet and I cannot help but to worry if I've hurt her
"Nini" this time when she called me, she got the remote and paused the movie as she faced me
"What's the matter?" I asked
"Rosé will come home tomorrow, so I only have up until tonight to stay here" she smiled sadly and I cannot help but be sad too
I was so happy being with Lisa all this time that I've forgotten that everything was temporary
"Nini?" Lisa called me snapping me out of my trance
"Okay" okay because I cannot do anything about it so I've just asked another question
"Date? Tonight?" and she smiled
"Okay, it's set" she replied
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We have just dined in a fancy restaurant and I'm afraid Lisa would pay all for it
"Omygodness" Lisa said as she started massaging her temple
"Why?" I asked her
"I've just forgot my wallet at your house" she said and it made me worry
The voice inside my head saying that she was just using me suddenly shouted inside my mind
"Okay, I'll pay for it" I said
"This is a disaster, I'll pay for it once we get home" she said
"No need" I just replied and called out for the bill
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We were now inside my penthouse when Lisa spoke up
"Nini? Why are you silent the whole time after dinner?" she asked me
"Nothing" I said as I still cannot shut the voice inside of me telling me that she was just using me
She then grabbed my shoulder and let me face her
"You can tell me why" she said to me "you know I'll listen to you"
"Nothing Lisa, I'm just tired" I replied
"Lisa? You never called me Lisa the past two weeks" she said "so what is the real matter here?"
My heart started beating madly as my nervousness arise
"Nothing" I said sternly
"I know it's not nothing Nini" she said, ever so calmly and I think it from her calmness that made me go berserk
"BECAUSE I THINK YOU'RE JUST USING ME!" I shouted and the hands that were cupped on my shoulder firmly started to fall of its grip
"Using you?" she asked as her hands ws now completely out of my shoulders
"Yes Lisa! I think everyone of you will just use me for money and if not it's my body you're chasing!" I shouted and that was the time Lisa chuckled
"So you think of me as everyone else? Someone that was just hanging around you because I can use you for my own sake?" Lisa said and her voice completely sounded so broken
"Yes" I replied small
"I've just borrowed money tonight Jennie because I've forgot my wallet"
Jennie, why did it sound bitter now that she didn't call me Nini?
"I'll pay you, but I'll go tonight" she said and that was the time I looked at her
And I saw her all broken, defeated even
"I'm sorry" she said and I wanted to cry since I've hurt the person that wanted to stay with me
"I'm sorry if I've let you felt that way" she continued "I was suppose to show you that I'll stay because you are you not because of your money but I guess I've failed"
"I'll go" she said as she slipped pass by me and went to her room
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After just 30 minutes, Lisa came out of her room with her duffle bag and her helmet
"Lisa" I called to her
"Hey" she replied and smiled weakly
"Thank you for letting me stay here" she said
"I'm sorry for that" I said to her
"It's fine Jennie, I'll see you around then?" she asked me and I cannot help but to worry
"Why do I feel like, we won't be seeing each other for a long time?" I asked her, at the verge of breaking down
"Don't worry, we'll meet again and in that time, I'll be much stronger" she said as I saw a single tear fall from her eye
"See you around Jennie" she said as she stepped a little forward to me and kissed my forehead
"You'll apply for work right?" It was silly to ask that question amidst her leaving
"Yeah, I think so. I'm not that ready yet to let you go" she said as she opened the door and went out
Should I be worried that Lisa will be gone or Lisa will be staying for a long time?
