Kentrell Desean Gaulden
'It's hard to love a enemy'
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I admit, I fucked up bad
I admit, I miss her so fucking much
I admit, I miss my son, she keeping him away from me
I admit, I am sorry, I regret everything
Ashiah don't want shit to do with me and it's making me angry. I'm even more angry at the fact that she keeping my son away from me
He ain't do nothing, he just a kid he don't know what's going on
why he gotta get punished for my ways?
Ashiah blocked me from everything so it ain't no way I can get in contact with her. When I go by the house she won't answer the door, and she changed the locks
it's my fault
"say yb, you need to get yo' lazy ass up" Montana said hitting me across the head with a rag
"I'm tired as fuck mane"
"that's part of being famous, you got a show tonight"
"go cancel it" I muttered before he looked at me like I was crazy
"No, you gone go to the show and make yo' money. Stop being lazy"
I groaned loud before rubbing my hand down my face. I just wanna stay home and chill out
"say, you can call Ashiah fa' me?" I asked changing the subject before he sucked his teeth
"you cheated on her but you keep tryna call her. What you want from her?"
"Montana she got my baby, I ain't seen my lit' boy in two weeks"
He ain't say nothing he just sighed and shook his head
"If she answer then what you want me to say?"
"tell her I wanna see my baby mane"
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"When you do dirt you get the same, yeah already know that I'm a thug really Big B living
Get on your ass when you be leaving you say that I'm trippin'— "
I stopped and wrote on my paper before inhaling from my blunt. Right now it was quiet as fuck in my house due to the fact it's just me
It been like this for two weeks , but it feel like forever
I sighed before picking my phone up, I had the urge to call Ashiah
I called from my second phone, she don't know about it
"hello" I heard her say and I was kind of stuck. I didn't know what to say "hello"
I still ain't say nothing so she hung
For some reason I'm nervous to talk to her. I got myself together before calling back
"what?" she answered the phone causing me to chuckle a little
Ain't shit change bout her
"let me talk to you, please"
"nigga I don't wanna— what Kentrell?"
"I wanna see my lit' boy" I simply said before she sucked her teeth
"do I want you to see my son?" I took the phone from my ear before looking at it
I shook my head and put the phone back to my ear
"he mine too"
"not no more"
"Ashiah what you gone get outta keeping him away from me?"
"I ain't gotta see you nor worry bout you" she answered, I know I'm dumb and all but that the dumbest shit I ever heard
"you hurting him not me, you the only one who get joy from this"
"look, I ain't tryna hear shit, and his birthday Saturday. Be there or hear about it, bye"
She hung up and I threw the phone down
"FUCK"
this shit pissing me off to the point where I wanna kill her
I don't give a fuck bout nothing but my son. He the only one that matter to me
... other then my momma and brothers
Everyday it's becoming hard for me to love Ashiah. I see why she avoiding me but I don't understand why she gotta do the same with K'Saun
The more she keep him away the more I grow angry. I'm starting to look at her as a enemy
It's hard to love a enemy
And when it's yo' fault somebody become yo' enemy.. it's hard to love yourself
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