Miri's War Day Ten,
Today was really good but bad in some cases too. I talked with some new people online, who reminded me that not everyone on Facebook are mean and nasty
Big thanks to Willie, Michelle FivebyFive Street, and others who know who you are, like Anna Neil
Anna took me fishing and a little hike today, I realized like how weak I am. If you're ever in upstate New York, Oakley corners state forest is soooo pretty, all the wild flowers, pine trees, and wow.
We saw deer, a red fox, otter, and bald eagle, plus lots of Canadian geese.
The only downside was no bathroom!!! Anna was like "Here's a tree, go behind there"
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Since I have been stressed, food has gotten harder again. I'm still eating, no purging, but it's a battle. Lol Anna didn't help on the way home, bought me a bacon cheeseburger!!
Being Jewish most of my life, bacon added to the guilty feeling.
I really miss working, but know I have to focus on getting stronger first. Anna and my family don't let me sit around and feel like mopey.
Dark thoughts tonight, wondering if I deserve to live... Yet scared I could randomly die from the damage I did.
I'm living and fighting for my family, my BFF Ciaran Davies, not me really. I may scare people, but Miri's War is bullshit free.
Affirmations: I am likeable still
Unicorns and kittens, Miribeth Liebowitz
