Dear Crush, F*ck you, I love you..

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Dear Jackson,

f*ck you! I love you! But still seriously f*ck you, you arrogant! vain, little sh*t! I hate you so much but I love you all the same. I have loved you since freshmen year and now with senior year coming my only desire is to be with you before graduation in June. I love you... But my god I hate you for all the pain you have put me through. F*ck you Jackson. I love you.

And in ten years when I am but a distant memory to you I will remember you and still feel the same butterflies enter my stomach at just the thought of you. You will be married right out of college to some girl who is way more attractive than me and I will be a single aspie girl as always. And do not even begin to imagine how painful that thought is... You being with someone else like you are now while I remain alone.

At least you made it clear that you hated me to when you countlessly made fun of me by pointing out my lack of social abilities and my appearance. I hate you so much for all the pain you put me through and yet I still love you. Please just leave me alone... No don't leave me I love you.

Love, Elizabeth.

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