Chapter 5
"Logan! Wait!"
I chase him down the corridor school while Zayn stood right behind me. While i was chasing him, im starting to think. What have i done? But i did nothing right? He was the person who hurt me at the first place, i shouldn't feel guilty. And then i scream
"RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN! BUT IF YOU EVER NEED AN EXPLANATION LATER IM NOT GIVING YOU ANY! IF YOU WANT IT, YOU HAVE TO ASK ME RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW"
I scream so loud until teacher comes out of their class and yelling at me
"Keep it down Ms. Or i will send you to principal room!"
A teacher from 12 grade say to me
"I apologize for that, it wont happen again"
"It better be."
And then the teacher back to her class
i saw a figure, not very far from me. Standing. Its Logan. He stopped running after i yelled at him, i jogged to reach him. Zayn just watched me from far because he knew Logan and i need to talk eye to eye
Before i get a say he already said something
"Why did you kissed him?" He ask me, looking down with his glimmering eyes full of tears that he cant hold it anymore
"Why did you left me the time we kissed?" I asked him.
"Because im afraid."
"Of what? Me? Im not a slut who sleeping around with guys, im not a girl who breaks heart an-"
"Listen to me first, will you?" He looks at me right in my eyes and then i give him a chance to talk
"Im afraid of affection! Of love! Because all my life i just watch someone else's life without getting noticed! Seeing people laugh, happy, in love, without feeling the affection. my life is full of dullness. I never think of anything beside how my life is always have and always been a sad story! Watching my sister and my brother make it into the social system and left me behind with no clue what to do, even my own sister wont talk to me in my old school. Thats why i moved here."
He breaks down in tears after telling me the truth.
Well... Now i feel bad
"Logan.. Im sorry.. I didnt know about you that well then, i guess."
And then Logan said something that i will never forget
"Its ok... It didn't fit, it wasn't right. Wasn't just the size... They say that we'll know when we are falling in love. But..... I don't know....."
Tears start running down my cheek
"Please give me, give US one last shot and we'll take it from the very beginning" i beg him while holding his trembling hands
"I.... Can't...." He said forcefully snatch his hand from my hand and run until i cant see his figure anymore
And i know
Chasing him was just wasting my time
And that was the moment i knew.
He's not the one for me
I watch him left me in the corridor with tears streaming down my face.
I turn my back around and i saw zayn with my starry of tears eye, and he runs and hug me tight
---- 6 months later ----
Graduation day is coming closer, high school days is coming to an end. I talk to myself, it has been 6 months since the disaster day, since the day i lost the love of my life (well i think) just because of a stupid mistake. I cannot stand the fact that i ruined another happy ending for myself. You know, its really annoying when you know you're going to have a happy ending but you know you're the one who is going to ruin it for yourself. But enough is enough, ive had it with the lovey dovey thing for this year. After im graduating from high school, which is a few days left. Im going to apply to a university and take literature for my main major. I don't know why but i always wanted to be an editor-in-chief in a famous magazine. So, why not try to be one? At least i think. But for now im going to eat my heart out first in my stuffy apartment, and yes im not going to school today because its unnecessary for me to go school.
*ting*
I glance at my phone and i see one message and i look up to the caller id, it says one message from Lily, my bestfriend.
Where have you been? The whole school has been buzzing about your "fighting in the hall" thing -l
Ugh im too lazy to go to school lily. Just leave me alone and let me eat my heart out will you -s
No i WILL not let my bestfriend eat her heart out. You better come to school tomorrow. I need to talk to you -l
Ugh but why? I've got work to do, i mean my work at the restaurant if you havent forgotten. -s
Listen you little whiny bitch, you better come to school or i will drag you myself from your flat to here! -lily
WHOAH OKAY OKAY I WILL SMH. -s
You better. -l
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I'm so so sorry if this chapter is such a shitty one. But i will make it better in the next chapter (and longer ofcourse) and i will try to fix all the grammar error =D
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And P.S. From now on i will post the next chapter every thursday and monday! And im SO SO SO SO SO SORRY for the LONG ASS UPDATE. Hehe.
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