Ages:
Hayes-18
Aaron-20
I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted I thought about our last kiss how it felt,the way you tasted
It's been almost six months since you left and each place I pass by reminds me of when we got wasted at the parties. You always was a hilarious drunk and I was a giggly one but our last kiss before you left,that kiss tasted and felt different because I needed him.
Even though your friends tell me
you're doing fine. Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you
Shawn, a close friend of yours told me that you're doing doing fine and have a new boyfriend even though that dick of a boyfriend is probably beside you as you read this.
When he says those words that hurt you do you read the ones I wrote you
Shawn said that guy was no good and Taylor told you that too but sometimes you're a bit stubborn and that kinda gets in the way sometimes.
Sometimes I start to wonder was it just a lie if what we had was real how could you be fine
Cos I'm not fine at all
I wonder if you ever truly loved me or was it just a ploy to hurt me in the end? I pretended to be fine but as soon as that door closed shut behind you,i broke down in tears.
I remember the day you told me you were leaving and I remember the makeup running down your face
the dreams you left behind you didn't need them like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you and the memories I never can escape cos I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you left so vividly and the makeup running down your face which you let Sky put it on you so she could have fun. All the dreams you left behind I guess you didn't need them since I was one them huh? I wish I could wake up with amnesia so I could forget about how safe and protected I was falling asleep next to you but I can't escape any of those memories. I'm really not fine at all no matter how badly I try to pretend.
The pictures that you sent me are still living in my phone I'll admit I like to see them the minute I feel alone and all my friends keep asking why I'm not around
The pictures you sent to me are still in my phone under the file,my best. I like to look at them whenever I feel lonely and all the guys keep asking why I'm not around but I don't tell them anything or it might break their hearts.
It hurts to know you're happy and it's hurts that you moved on it's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
Knowing your happy and moved on hurts so much and hearing your name just rips my heart in two because I haven't seen you in so long.
It's like we never happened was it just a lie
If what we had was real how could you be fine
Cos I'm not fine at all
Because of your new boyfriend and happiness makes wonder if we ever happened in your mind because we were together in mine.
If today I woke up with you right beside me like all of this was just some twisted dream I'd hold you closer than I ever did before and you'd never slip away and you'd never hear me say
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
If I woke up with you beside me right now I'd hold you closer and go back to sleep cause the love of my life is in my arms. You'd never slip away from me and we'd be happy together but the day you told me goodbye was the day I broke down for the first time in years. You were my first love and no one can ever replace you.
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
I wish I could wake up with amnesia so this heartache would go away and none of this happened. I just-I just can't do it anymore,you took my heart when you left.
Tell me this is just a dream
Cos I'm really not fine at all
Please wake me up if this is a dream because it's hard watching this nightmare happen. It's killing me to see you with him all happy and lovey,i just wish you didn't leave when you did because I planned on asking you to marry me. I know stupid right but I was but you dropped a bomb on me and now this my letter to you saying I'm leaving because I love you too much to live. I love you Aaron Carpenter and now you can live in peace without worrying about me,don't worry I'm not killing myself thought about it but I'm not. I'm moving away so everyone can be happy without a mopey mess following them.
Love,
Hayes
I hope you guy like this because I thought about how it was going I work out but it turned out different than how I planned sorry if it's too short or too long. Have a good morning/afternoon/night :)
