~~langst~~ (one shots)

quiet

Keith is gone.

I'm now the red paladin of voltron.

But I don't want to be....

I'm not fast or fiery.

not hot headed or strong.

I'm the opposite.

I want blue back.

I don't want this red pile of junk.

But Allura has blue now... i wonder who blue likes best.

Probably Allura.

I'm just lance. Worthless pathetic lance. A boy from cuba.

Shiro is giving out to me more then ever lately. I can barely take it. Allura too even though she has no right to since she can't control blue like I used to.

...

I guess.

Shiro keeps telling me to be more like keith.

Everytime i mess up its just.

'Be more like keith'
'If you were more like keith we would be amazing,lance'
'If you were keith that would have worked'
'Keith is so much better then you are lance'
'Why can't you a just be like keith, lance!?'
'I wish keith would come back'

So maybe I'll take his advise....

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××Lances pov××

I walk into the kitchen and sit down at the table.

I resist the urge to speak biting my tongue until I take blood.

"Pidge. I need you to work on upgrading the castles defenses with hunk. Our last battle hit close" shiro says firmly.

"Rodger that" Pidge says smiling. Hunk nods too.

"Allura can you try to bond better with your lion. Go spend some time alone with it"

She

"Of course shiro. I can understand why I need to. It's kind of difficult to handle" Allura says laughing slightly.

She

Shiro nods and smiles at her.

Then he turns to me.

"Lance I need you to train harder"

I nod tiredly, not having the effort to argue.

Last night I did nothing but train. I didn't even sleep.

"Yes shiro" i mumble looking away.

I want to tell him I already did but... I've got to be more like keith and keith would train...

•••time skip•••

I'm proud of myself.

I haven't slept in a week. I've trained and trained and trained and trained instead. It's kind of fun now. Not sleeping. Because I know it's slowly killing me....

...what was I saying?

Oh yeah!

I haven't talked back when shiro is lecturing me in a week. I'm getting good at letting it kill me from the inside out and not letting it show!

Are you proud of me?

I skip my beauty routine now too. Keith wouldn't do it.

I haven't cracked a joke in a week either. They were awful anyway.