Random Book Of Poetry

Poem 12

Here lies me

Sunrise: October 2001

Sunset: 2nd grade

Then who the hell is standing before me if you died

Your answer

unknown

For the longest time 

People have been trying to figure out what happened to her

What happened to the girl who used to be so confident

What happened to the girl that used to be so happy

What happened to the girl that used to never shy away from a challenge

She was murdered

She was murdered by the school

She was murdered by her classmates

They realized too late what they did to her

She died

Coming home she was a zombie

But everyone else still saw her as a living person

Little did everyone know she attended her own funeral

She looked in the open casket

Her body cloaked in a rainbow dress

She never could decide on her favorite color

Clutching a small bouquet of flowers

Her hair in twists with barrets on the end

There was no external damage to the naked eye

It was all internal

Her brain deteriorated until it rotted away

Left her empty

Some people ask me 

If she died

How are you still here

I rose from the dead and came back

I didn't want my family to suffer a worse fate than I did

Then what did you feel when you saw yourself?

Nothing.

I felt nothing

I felt like that for so long

I feel like every day I have to hide the truth

Pretend to be happy

I've done it for years

You would think I would be a pro at it at this point

Truth is I'm not

It's exhausting to act in high school

Having to walk around every day

Smiling

Laughing

Being nice to everyone who was mean to me at one point

For 10 hours 

For 11+ on days, I have a club

And that's just during school

I have to act for another 5+ hours when I get home

The only time I don't act is when I sleep

My dreams know me

It goes through my whole day in a flash

Then goes through a bunch of memories I hate

Turns my hopes into nightmares

Does that mean I can never escape?

Guess so.

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A/N 

Heya all my readers. I'm sorry it's been a while since I posted. Due to all the updates, I held off. Plus I couldn't figure out what to write. So I'm back lol. Because it has been a while, I made this post a longer than my last ones. Hope you enjoyed. Cya guys!