Melody of My Heart [slow update]

CHAPTER FIVE

The sun was shining through the window curtains waking me up. I got up still dazed with sleep trying to remember what happened and realize that I was on my bed. I drag myself and took a peeked outside to checking if Seunghyun oppa is still here but there was no sign of him. He waited for me last night and I just dozed off like that when he came here to see me. I felt really bad for doing that to him.

I checked my phone but no messages, maybe he's really mad. I sighed. I decided to go to his house 'I'm going to see him today. I'm going to apologize and tell him how I feel.' 

I rushed to the bathroom and fell flat on my face. With the sudden movement, last night's pain on my feet just got worse. I was limping to the bathroom, ‘a cold shower would do the trick.’

Just when I was about to go in there was a knock at the door. It was Seunghyun. Still with my bed hair and in my pajamas, I flushed. He has seen me like this a million times before but still, I wasn't expecting him to come this early. I was still slightly limping when I let him in.

"What's wrong? Are you hurt? Why are you walking like that?" he said his voice worried.

"My feet are killing me. I didn't realize I was walking way too much yesterday." I sat down on the couch and gently massage my feet.

He stood up and came back with a cold wet towel. "What were you thinking? How much walking did you do to be hurt like this?" he said as he massaged my feet with the towel. I slightly flinched as he did so. Then his touch started to affect me more than ever, heat started to invade my cheeks and I turned slightly pink. I bit my lip and fiddled with my fingers. 

"So you passed huh…congratulations." he said without looking at me, too occupied with what he's doing. Maybe he thought I didn't hear him last night but I heard him. His voice, I can still remember it clearly.

"Of course I got in! Even though I not good in studying I’ve got the talent to pass. Besides written exams in the entertainment department is totally different from general studies department. I can do anything if I put my mind into it you know.” I said with a smile looking optimistic.

“So now you’re even proud to say that you’re not good at studying. Even if 70% comes from your performances, 30% of academics is no small thing. It can pull you down. I just want you to always remember that.” His face was serious.

“I know oppa, besides I still have to earn that YGU scholarship program."

"Kalie you know you don't have to..." he said as he stopped massaging my feet.

"But I want to oppa. I don't want to depend on your parents anymore now that I'm in college. They've helped me more than enough now." I said cutting him off.

His parents have been good friends with my parents for almost two decades. And 7 years ago both of my parents died in an accident and his parents have been the one who took care of me. They offered me to stay with them but I wanted to stay in this house, the house my parents build for our family, for us. It has too many memories for me to let go.

They also sent me to school for almost 7 years now and even paid for my daily expenses, I don't want them to think that I'm abusing them. And besides I want to stand on my own now.

"Don't say that. You know you have never been a burden to us."

"Oppa, I just want to be a little more independent now. And besides by getting a scholarship I will be recognized by people in the entertainment industry." I explained.

"I just don't want you to feel obligated to do that just because of money. But if you put it that way...just don't push yourself too hard." He ruffled my hair and start massaging my feet again.

"Oppa..." I stopped, still hesitant. He looked up when I didn't continue.

"What is it?" his voice genuinely curious.

"I'm sorry about last night...I made you wait and worry about me...I even fell asleep when you took the time to come and see me...I just...I feel so bad...You're not mad at me...are you?" The short silence is slowly eating me up. 'What if he's really mad? How am I supposed to tell him?'  There's just too many what if's running through my mind.

"There is nothing to be mad about." With his words relief washed over me. "It's my fault anyway. Don't worry kiddo." He continued.

"That's good to hear. And oppa don’t call me kiddo. I'm not a kid anymore, I'm grown lady"

"Oh really now?" He said with a teasing smile eyeing my cartoon pajamas.

"Yah!" I got up and playfully hit him.

“Go and get ready so we can already have our date. I’ve been missing you too much.” a wide smile plastered on his face.

I flushed so red so I turned away from him. I ran to my room trying to hide my too obvious reaction. ‘I guess I’ll have the chance to tell him today, but then, what if he’ll say no. I just don’t want anything to be awkward between us or worse he would completely avoid me.’ I steadied myself and walked to the shower thinking and imagining of the million ways to tell him.