Suffocating
Silently
Drowning
In anxiety
Excruciating
Pain throughoutNumb
To the bone
Useless
In every wayUnable to move
Unable to talk
Unable to connect
Always able to thinkMake it stop
Make me connect
Make me talk
Make me moveI beg you
I dream of heroism
I dream of adventure
Dreams never rise to the occasionWhat's the point of dreams
If they never morph into reality?I am setting myself up for failure
I can never meet my expectationsMake me stop dreaming
Make me face reality
Save me from my dream worldMy fantasies are causing torment
I have created my own prison
My own comaI need to wake up
I need to do something
I need to help someone
Even if no one wants my help
I need my helpMy desperate need for answers
I'm afraid I have none
My desperate need to escape fear
I'm afraid I can't
My desperate need for perfection
I'm afraid there is none
My desperate need to be the hero
I'm afraid I can'tI've accepted it
So why can't I escape it?I want to wake up
But I'm so tired
I want to break free of my cocoon
But I'm so weak
I want to do something
But I'm so self-involved
I want the light
But the dark is so welcomingIs temptation too strong?
Or am I too weak?Am I happy the way I am?
Or is this dream
A nightmare in sheep's clothing
Telling me to be happy?The mind bends and flexes reality
So why not my state of mind?Should I be told I am happy
And believe it
Or
Suffocate knowinglyBetter to die unexpectedly
Sleeping
Rather than
Wide awake
Counting down the minutesIgnorance is not my bliss
I won't make it so