I was unaware
Ordinary
Happy
Regular
Joyful
Day
Turned into
Dark
Emptiness
Yet there was peace
I was at harmony
I was happy
I was excited
Then she came to my room
Curiosity
Of what words would escape her lips
Caution
As I followed her to that room
A single tear
Silent as the grave
Trailed down her cheek
I knew what this was
No
No
No
No
I must be wrong
She began to speak....
No
No
No
No
She must be wrong
... he felt no pain
No
No
No
No
The shrill pitch of sadness erupted from my lungs
The tears shed that night
Though plentiful
Could not satisfy the fiery flames in my heart
Why
Why
Why
Emotionless
Unfeeling
Numb
Stuck in
Doubt
Shout
Drought
I am grief's newest virgin
Never have I felt this pain
Yet unable to show it
Guilt
Guilt
guilt
Rage
He was peaceful
He was hopeful
He was adventurous
I'd rather me than him
I have the knowledge
I know why
So why is acceptance beyond my reach?
Never
will I see his smile again
Never
Will I feel his embrace
Never
Will I chuckle at his innocence
Until the day I die
I know I'll see him again
But the pain of waiting
My entire life
Is too much to bear
I can't stop thinking
I can't stop analyzing
I can't stop
I can't help but regret
I want to tell him
How much he meant to me
I want to tell him
I miss him
I'm sorry
I wasn't born sooner
I'm sorry
I've never spent enough time with you
I'm sorry
For the hurtful things I said
I'm sorry
I'm happy for you
But angry you're not here
You won't be at my wedding
You won't see my children
You won't see the effect you had in our lives
He is lucky to have you
He is lucky to see your smile
He is lucky to feel your embrace
He is lucky to hear you laugh
For the rest of eternity
Wait for me
Miss me
As much as I miss you
