Fearless

chapter 9

CHAPTER 9

unafortunately i did woke up. and it was still monday.

great...things got better....no.

i arrived earlier as usual and  sat on the same exact place. i didnt know how should i react when Drew arrived. should i pretend anything had happened? should i ask him about it?

anyway i didnt have to because drew didnt arrived early. and i was pretty sure it wasnt a coincidence...

after some minutes i saw him walking through the gates of the school. i looked at him but he didnt even looked back, although we both knew he knew i was there.

i felt embarassed and decided i had had enough. i oppened the doors of the building and entered before the bell had rang. tears started rolling down my face.

a man, probably a teacher, said something rudely to me but i wasnt even able to listen to him. i walked as fast as i could and got into the girls bathroom.

i looked at my reflect on the mirror

i had my face completely red and my eyes were still wet. but the worst thing wasnt that.

the worst thing was the rest of myself.

i remember i used to feel pretty.

i used to feel loved.

i used to feel i was worth it.

but somehow i end up realizing i was lying to myself.

i havent ever told anyone about this because i didnt want anyone to feel guilty or the need to help me. i had never done anything to myself and i had promised me i would never do it.

only looking at the mirror felt like burning inside. i tuned arround and oppened one of the baths, the biggest one for wheelchairs, although i hadnt seen anyone using a wheelchair over here.

"hey could you please wait?" when i opened i saw a girl, sitting oh the bathtub with his feet on the metal bar there was on the right side of her. " its occupied cant you see?"

she was smoking some kind of...well i didnt know much about that so i decided no to guess. she had a beautiful dark blue hair and was dressed in a completely back palet colors.

even though her strange look, she actually dressed up preetty well.

"oh im so sorry, i didnt know there was anyone here" i said as i closed the door.

" bah never mind, i was tired of beign alone! no one ever comes to this bathroom didnt you know?" she stood up and threw whatever she was smoking to the bathtub. " its too far from the rest of the classes and its too small for the cute popular girls to use it"

she looked at my face.

" em...are you allright?" she asked as we both got in front of the mirrors.

" yeah yeah, perfectly find, never mind" i got some water and refreshed my face. i smiled at the blue-haired girl.

" im Kenna" she said as she smiled back

" im charlotte. so...you've got a reallly cool color hair!"

" oh thanks! its the first time i have blue hair! ive allteady tried brown, reddish and orange which was awful!"

i was astonished wow.

"so...do you really feal okay..?" she asked me with care.

"actually not...but does doesnt mind."

" well im sure it does and im 90% sure its about a boy you will have to face in the next class, am i wrong?"

she wasnt. my whole classes from today were with drew, but for the two lasts ones. i had really good luck.

"so i have your solution" she said as she got her dark purse on her harm."lets not go to class today. you dont have any exams no?"

"i do not but..."

" so this is arranged, you cant say no!"

"well but homework...and class notes?"

" you can ask for them later to someone of your class"

"em... i actually talk to nobody from my class..."

" oh dont worry then, i will get you your homework and classnotes! im sure i know half of your class!"

well....i didnt have anything to loose and i wasnt in the mood to have any classes.

i agreed and before the bell rang and someone noticed of our absesenced we got out. as i walked past the entrance gate i saw drew.

" listen" kenna wishpered to me "dont look at that boy. keep your head high and smile, better if you fake a big laugh"

i started laughing and it actually sounded real. i noticed him looking at me and i did as kenna said. kept my head high and kept walking

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