Contradicting yourself is ever so obvious
And the thoughts in my head are ever so ominous
And what shall I do when those thoughts turn to fury
Don't wanna think about dying but those thoughts do it for me
Wishing to die is like making a wish on a star
It never comes true 'cause that attempt only goes so far
Wake up in the hospital with only one thought on your brain
Why didn't work, I'm tired of the pain
The thoughts in my head hold all the authority
They don't want me alive, they want to destroy me
They want me to die, they are my leader
So I cut open my wrist and hope I leak out a liter
So close to death, hoping all my blood drains
No one will miss me so just dump my body and really hope it rains
Wash away the evidence and wash the blood stains
Now they'll say here lies a mistake who exaggerated her pain
But yet again my dreams don't come true
They found me once again and now the attempt is something I'll forever rue
The voices in head say you reap what you sow
I'm still not dead yet, now I'm at my all time low
I'll get out again and maybe this time it'll work
I cut a little deeper this time and that's when I see the demons lurk
I Think my time has come, I'm sorry if anyone gets hurt
I'm gone, and all of my pain got swallowed
I've finally been able to feel what it's like to not be hollow
Death was my fantasy
The voices are gone now, and I'm happier you see...
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I actually can't believe I wrote this since I haven't been up to par with my poetry. It's been a minute. So I hope it's good. This was supposed to be hinted as Sonya's thoughts. But thank you for the reads and votes! Love y'all ❤️
-Summer ❤️
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