Broken.

Broken | Kate

I saw him again. It was too painfull to even look at him, so instead I just ignored that he was standing just a few steps away from me. So when Sam came to talk to me, I gave him my undivided attention, although I would sneak a peek once in a while.
I started laughing and joking around with Sam, at the same time Leah came skidding and leapt into his arms. Disgusting. 
I tried not to show that I was hurt when he hugged her back, but I think it was pretty clear on my face and he just stared at me. After that Leah took off with him.

I could sense he was looking at me in the bus. I just enjoyed talking to Sam. Leah looked pissed that he was not paying any attention to her stupid blabbering.

When Sam dropped me off, I was certain Drake looked just as in pain as I had been before.
I silently thanked the lord for helping me making it through the day. I stared at the teddy on my bed and thought about him again. It was a present he gave me on my birthday, even though he knew I didn't really like stuffed animals and stuff much. He used to say that whenever I felt lonely and he wasn't there due to any reason, I could hug the teddy and feel safe and loved. I did it everyday. I couldn't help but cry because of it too.

I had kept ignoring him even when he tried to talk to me after that incident because I just couldn't. He wanted us to be 'Just friends'. I couldn't help but wonder what happened to the guy who used to be my best friend.

It was too hard to be Just friends, when that bitch couldn't un-stick herself from Drake. It was as if she was glued to him. I don't know if it was for real or to show me that I now had no relation with the guy whatsoever and that only she could have him. 
I decided to stay calm and not talk to her at all, because if I did, I would end up hurting her. Which won't do much good, even if she deserved every punch I had.

I kept thinking about all the times me and Drake spent together, eventually slipping off in a sleep where those things wouldn't stop tormenting me about everything I went through. It was like re-living the very same things but with a broken heart.