Trespasser

Chapter One

"Don't leave me here to pass through time

Without a map or road sign

Don't leave me here, my guiding light

'Cause I, I wouldn't know where to begin"- "Kings of Medicine" by Placebo   

Let’s start from the beginning: of me, that is.   

Unknown POV 

Life.  Beautiful life.  Being there to witness the birth of a child is an amazing thing.  The eyes, the ears, the fingers that have never seen, heard, or felt this world before.     

"You can't quit until you try

You can't live until you die

You can't learn to tell the truth until you learn to lie  

You can't breathe until you choke

You gotta laugh when you're the joke

There's nothing like a funeral to make you feel alive  

Just open your eyes

Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful.

Will you swear on your life, that no one will cry at my funeral?" 

Sixx Am's life is beautiful played on the radio as we drove home from the hospital.  Life is beautiful.  Yes, yes it is.   But this wouldn't be my beauty forever.  

I pulled over at an orphanage.  

I looked at the child in my hands, the son of my wife, the son that we can't have.  

I kissed his forehead. "Goodbye, Sean."  

And with that, I put him on the doormat, rang the doorbell, and got in my car.

I drove, I drove fast.  

I needed to get away from this.  From all of this.  Driving up the mountain, the tallest mountain in our area, my heartbeat accelerated as if trying to beat itself in some sick race.

I stepped out of the car. I smelled the air, took a deep breath.

 The air at this altitude was clean and fresh, revitalizing my lungs, and I smiled.  Glee filled my mind:

I’m free, finally free.

I stepped up to the ledge, and let myself fall.