shawn mendes my best friend

the drop off

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-julezzz

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stella's POV

me, shawn, and cameron went out to lunch before we had to drop cameron off.

something was obviously going on because they were a lot more serious than they usually were.

when we got to our table they stared at eachother than me.

"stella. we have something to ask you." shawn said as his leg shook nervously

"yeah and it's really important." cameron nodded

"sure what is it.." i asked concerned

"tons of things are going on now with our relationship, and you and cam's relationship and we just want to clear these things up." shawn said softly

"ok what are you asking here?" i replied confused now

"we want to know who you want to be with." cameron said getting straight to the point

shawn glared at him and cameron laughed, "you were beating around the bush too much."

"what do you mean who i want to be with?" i asked even though i knew exactly what they meant, it had caught me completely off guard.

"stella, we just need to solve this problem before it gets any-" shawn tried to comfort me

i interrupted him, "i know, i just didn't expect this type of question.." 

"so this is a hard deciscion for you?" cameron asked

"i mean.." 

shawn sighed, "so much for boyfriend." he said leaning back in his chair.

"i love both of you guys, ok. understand that. i'm completely torn. shawn, i love you with all my heart and soul and i'm so happy i get to be your girlfriend, but i don't deserve you. and cameron, you're a great guy and i miss you, alot. but i don't deserve you either. i don't deserve any of you. you're both amazing guys, and you guys deserve a girl who wants you, and just you. i'm a mess. i don't know what i want, and it's unfair to keep you guys away from girls who know what they want, im sorry. im so sorry." i spoke as tears started to run down my cheeks

cameron lowered his head and shawn nodded like he understood.

"stella.." shawn said hugging me

"im sorry shawn, you deserve to be happy." i cried holding on to shawn

i released and saw cameron tearing up.

he instantly hugged me and didn't let go.

"cam, you mean so much to me" i said with a shaky voice

he released and stared in to my eyes, "stella, you deserve someone who adores you just as much as we deserve someone who adores us." 

"we're sorry that we made you feel this way." shawn added

"im sorry too. im sorry you guys are too amazing for me to choose." 

we left the buffet we ate at because we had just made a huge scene in front of dozens of people.

cameron had to use the bathroom and it was a perfect time for me and shawn to talk to eachother alone.

"so this is it." he said holding my hand

"no, it's not. you're still my best friend. and i still love you shawn. i'll always love you, there's nothing you could do that could make me not-"

before i could finish rambling shawn pulled me in and planted a kiss on my lips.

"okay." he smiled

he let go of my hand and put his arm around me,

"we can go back to being best buddies."

"i'd like that." i nodded

i wanted shawn as more than just a friend but it was unfair because i was so unsure of what i really wanted. 

my choice was none.

and i was fine with it, the past months had been all about me.

what i want.

who i want to be with.

it was completely insensitive. 

cameron finished and he sat on the curb next to us

"we're good, right guys?" he asked

"we're great." shawn said giving him a fistbump.

"yeah what he said" i smiled

we got in to the car and drove cameron to the airport.

it was like the best car ride in my life. we talked about all the memories and fun times we shared together at magcon. all of our inside jokes and weird stories that only we would get.

i dreaded getting closer to the airport.

when we got to the airport i started to cry again. these guys must've thought of me as a total weenie.

shawn got out from the car and said bye to cameron, "see you in a few weeks alright cameron." he nodded. cameron gave him a huge hug.

"love you buddy" cameron nodded. "love you too cam." shawn smiled at him. 

"take care of stella, okay canadian boy?" he said grabbing his luggage

shawn nodded and took a few steps back so i could say goodbye to cameron.

i ran to cameron and he hugged me and lifted me slightly off the ground. "i love you stella. call me okay?" he whispred as he picked me up. "of course cam" i smiled. i wiped my eyes and leaned in for a kiss.

i was such a slut. kissing shawn and cameron on the same day. 

"see ya." he waved

me and shawn waved at him as he went inside the airport.

we hung out in the car waiting for cameron to text us that he checked in his bags.

my phone buzzed and shawn started the car up, i read the text from cameron

[hey stella, please meet me in the airport by the giftshop, it's urgent. but have shawn stay in the car, it'll just be a sec] 

i showed shawn the text and he smiled at me deviously

he unlocked the door and i ran out