shawn mendes my best friend

home finally

shawn's POV

i woke up on the plane and saw stella sleeping. i hate her for being so fucking pretty. and so fucking taken.

i pulled out my notebook and continued writing an original song i'd been working on before magcon.

it was about a hopeless romantic. how ironic right.

i tested a few bars of the song

and i wont be
who you want me to be
the wait is too long

stella woke up and rubbed her eyes

"oh my bad did i wake you up"

"no its okay. you sound great." she smiled sweetly

"could i um. hear the rest?"

i was surprised.

"its not finished but sure."

i began singing the tiny song i had.
i couldn't take my eyes off of stella the whole time.

"wow shawn. thats really good." she said holding my hand.

why must she tempt me.

"you think so?"

"yes! i love it!" she said leaning on my shoulder.

x

a muffled voice went over the intercom saying

"we have arrived in toronto. thanks for flying with us folks."

i looked down at stella who was asleep still resting on my shoulder, holding my hand.

i wish i could stay in that position forever.

i gently tapped her.
"stells we're here."

i always called her stells. since i can remember. it makes me happy because its something only i can do. unless cameron took over that too.

she awoke again and noticed our hands were still locked.

"yay we're home!" she squealed

she squeezed my hand.

"listen shawn. im sorry about the whole crazy magcon trip. i had no idea it was gonna turn out like this and i just hope we can carry on." she pleaded

"dont worry about it. im just glad you had fun."

we got off of the airplane, and she never let go of my hand.

we loaded our luggage in to my car that was parked at the airport parking garage. it was cold and snow covered the dashboard. i thought about how different things were the day we hopped on the plane to orlando.

for one thing stella didnt have a boyfriend.

before i drove her home i had to get to the bottom of the hand holding thing. it was really bothering me.

"stella, um im just curious, why were you holding my hand just then?" i sounded so idiotic

"because well. shawn i love you. i mean youre not just my best friend but i-"

what

"i really care about you. and it made me happy to hold your hand!" she giggled.

"imagine how happy you would be to date me." i accidentally said out loud

"shawn. i like you. i really do. but things are just complicated now. i hope you know that i wish i could kiss you i wish i could hold your hand and call you mine. but that trip just set me back. and i need time to just slow down."

my heart froze.

i hope she meant breaking up with cameron.

"stella. why not. cameron is in california thats miles and miles and miles away." i gripped the steering wheel

"i couldnt cheat on him. im sorry shawn but this is just way too much to handle i cant take all this pressure im so confused."

"whats so confusing about this."
at the red light i leaned in and kissed her passionately

a tear rolled down her cheek

"shawn please. just take me home. i want to go home."

stella's POV

shawn finally pulled up in to my driveway. i was just so done with everything. i kinda liked shawn. but i was dating cameron. i was so confused.

"bye stella. im sorry." he hugged me.

he helped me with my luggage and i opened the front door.

my family was on a three month trip to ontario for a charity thing for church.

i wasn't admitted to come since i was 18 and the trip was for a "family with children under the age of 17"

but i didnt mind. they had aunt kendra check on me every once in a while but she was sorta forgetful. so i was living on my own pretty much.

my phone rang. it was cameron calling to facetime.

i answered it unable to press reject.
metaphorically speaking.

my screen flashed with cam and his adorable smile.

"heeey baby girl!" he waved

"hi cam!!!" i tried to seem genuinely excited

"how was your flight?"

"ordinary." i lied.

"hahaha. so how are you and shawn?" he said putting the camera down

"we're.. we're just fine." i lied again.

"hey you live alone?" he said looking around.

"no my parents are just on a three month trip." i replied

"oooh cool." a huge dog came and licked cameron on the side of the face. it was pretty adorable.

"jaaake! im talkin to my girlfriend here buddy." he petted his head.

animal lover. how hot.

"this is jaaakeypooo." he said putting the camera in front of his face.

"aaaw hes so cuute!" i smiled

"jake she thinks youre cute. what the hell man!" he playfully scooted him aside

"hey youre wearing my sweatshirt!" he laughed

"yes! its so comfy and it smells like you" i said biting my lip trying to seem seductive.

"girl. dont play like that!" he said poking the camera

"i hope when you return it to me in nashville it smells like you!"

ugh i forgot about nashville.

"well it looks beautiful on you" he said winking

"thanks babe." i kissed the camera

he kissed it back.

"i miss you already." he said more serious

"i miss you too cam. i hope i get to see you soon" i pouted out my lip

"DANG GURL WHY YOU BEING SO SEXXXYYY FOOORR" he said in a crazy voice he only used around nash

"psssshhhh." i blushed

"i gotta go baby but i'll text you okay?"

"okay." i replied

"love you."

"i love you too cameron."

i hung up the phone.

what the hell did i get myself in to.