Nervous Confessions- A johnlock fanfic

Nervous Confessions Chapter 3

CHAPTER 3

John's POV

As I looked at my beautiful flatmate I knew he was troubled. It's normal for him to be disappointed about a case if it's too easy, but usually he yells at me to tell him were I hid his cigs. Today though he's been sitting around being bored and sulking. He won't even look at me when I ask him what's wrong. I want to help him,but since I don't know what's wrong I can't. He finally looks up and I realize I've been staring at him. I look away quickly hoping he didn't notice. I wonder how long it will take him to realize that I like him as more than just a friend. Actually I'm surprised he hasn't figured it out yet. The only reason I know he hasn't is because he would have confronted me about it. He's not the sensitive type so he wouldn't realize how mean it is to point it out and harshly reject me. I don't know what I would do if he made me move out. I don't know if I'd be able to live without him in my life. I have a feeling that Mrs. Hudson and Molly know, but thankfully they haven't pointed it out. I just wish this were all easier.

Sherlock's POV

When we got to the flat I lay down on the couch. John started to type out the case on his blog while I sulked. He asked me if I was OK a couple times, but I didn't answer. After a while I noticed he wasn't typing anymore and I looked up to see if he was still there. He was and I caught him staring at me before he quickly looked away. I smiled as I looked away. Maybe he likes me back... No. I know he doesn't. That's ridiculous. He's made it quite clear that he's not gay. I just wish I hadn't let him capture my heart like he did. Even though he's not very good at deducing he's pretty good at being able to tell if someone likes someone so I'm surprised he hasn't figured this out. Well maybe he has. He might not say anything if he does so I can't be sure if he has realized yet. I want to tell him, but I'm pretty sure it would just make everything worse. I feel sorry for normal people who feel things all the time. Feeling is such a pain in the arse! I can't believe that people live this way for their whole life. I don't know how they can deal.