(I’m so sorry for the wait, I’ve been so busy and have had time to update. Here’s a little something to say sorry and I’ll get started on some more as soon as I can xx)
Chase’s P.O.V
This all too much to take in. I don’t know if I can handle it, the media, my picture being in the paper with some god awful headline, I’m freaking even thinking about it. I knew there would be a price to pay being Harry’s girlfriend, but this is far too early and I don’t think I’m ready for it
I could see in Harry’s eyes and the tone of his voice how sincere he was, how sorry he was that this happened, and believe me I don’t want to lose him over something like this but the truth is I can’t handle it. It’s too big of a deal for something this early along in a relationship, I haven’t even had the time to deal with his fans finding out he has a girlfriend, let alone us being in the news together
And what will my mother think. I never told her about Harry, I tell her everything. She will be heartbroken if she finds this out before I have said anything to her. My head hurts this is too much to process at the moment I think I’m going to pass out
I can’t think straight, my mind is clouded. I don’t know what to do. Do I want to stay? Do I want to leave? Do I want to leave him? I don’t know anymore, this has scared me
I felt a warm touch to my hand that pulled me out of my daze, I had zoned out so far I had forgotten I wasn’t alone in the car, I actually forgot I was in the car to be honest. I looked up at Harry who had worry spread across his face and sympathy glistening in his eyes
I gave him a small smile, I can’t be mad at him it’s not his fault. I know he’s trying to make things right and help me get through it all, but again it’s a lot to take in and I’m a very private person, knowing that my picture is going to be in the paper, probably painted as London’s newest skank, I don’t even want to think about it
“I’m ok Harry, I promise” I reassured him, returning my gaze to out the window. I squeezed his hand to let him know I was
When the truth is that I don’t really know any more, I don’t want to be in the public eye. I haven’t even started my job yet, started living yet. I’m not ready and I don’t know if I can do this
The remainder of the car ride was silent until Harry said quietly
“We’re here”
He pulled his car up the driveway and then parked. I quickly snapped out of my trance and looked up, their house was beautiful. I couldn’t help but stare, with my mouth wide open
“Nice house” Steph stated. Oh my god Steph
“Steph” I hissed
“What? I’m just saying” she said defensively
Harry chuckled “Come on in the boys are dying to see you, and their girlfriends are all here too, it’ll be like one big couples party” I gulped at the thought. I don’t know if I can do this
“What’s wrong babe” Harry said opening my door for me
“Nothing” I lied climbing out his car shutting the door behind me
“You’ve been quiet ever since we talked, are you sure you’re ok” he asked softly gently grabbing my hand
“I’m fine Harry, ok” I snapped, snatching my hand away. My mind is right, I can’t deal with this right now it’s too much. I turned back to the car, I don’t want to be here I want to go home, right home away from all of this
His face dropped, oh shit, I’ve hurt his feelings. I saw the pain in his eyes at my harsh tone. No, no, I didn’t want to do that. My heart has just broken seeing him hurt like that
“Chase” Steph barked at me “Don’t be rude, it’s not Harry’s fault”
“I know, Harry I’m sorry, it’s just a lot to process” I said reaching for his hand, which he took cautiously, I gave his hand a reassuring squeeze and shot him a gentle smile
I know it’s not his fault, it’s not anyone’s fault, it’s a part of the package of dating someone famous, I knew that when I started dating him. I didn’t think it would happen quite so soon and not as nasty rumours to start out with either. It’s safe to say that I am shit scared of what is ahead of us and I don’t know how to handle it all. I can’t keep getting mad at Harry it’s not fair. I tell myself to stop being a bitch and to put on a brave face and enjoy our night
I leaned forward to place a gentle kiss to his cheek to let him know everything was ok…sort of. He pulled me close in to a tight embrace and I reacted immediately, this is where I want to be, in his arms forever. No amount of good or bad publicity is going to change the way I feel about him, I know that now. We will get through this, together. I can feel it
I’ve fallen hard and fast for Harry, and with all that has happened I’ve come to realise that our bond is strong and it can only get stronger. Seeing how much he hurt with the way I spoke to him before and how horrible I felt after speaking to him like that, it hurt me. I never want to see him like that again, hurt at the hands of my harsh words. I think that I love him, is that why it hurts so much
“Well, well, looks like the party is in the driveway now” I heard someone chuckle from the front door
I looked up and smiled, he had his arms wide open
“Louis!” I yelled and ran straight in to them to be welcomed with a massive bear hug
