The Diary Of Jane | ✓ [DELETING]

18.

I talked with Dave, just like I said I would in that text I sent him.

If only he could erase all the damage he'd done. If only we could go back to the way we were. But we can't. What's said is said, what's done is done. We can't hit rewind. But we can start over. Start fresh. Taking things slow. We both agreed to give it try, to hang out and see where it goes. I want to believe him, I really do. For these past few months all I wanted is to find a way to be with him, even though I didn't always want to admit it. And now, when it's finally happening, I can't shake this resentful feeling. 'Once a cheater, always a cheater'. It keeps playing in my head. Over and over and over again. It makes me sick. What the hell am I supposed to do?

1:02 AM

I know you're probably sleeping but I just wanted you to know a couple of things:

1. You are my only love and I will give everything just to make you happy

2. You are the only one who can make me feel the way I do

3. You can always count on me, if you ever need anything, I'm just one call away

I know I have my outburts, I know that sometimes I act like I don't care, but trust me, the only thing in life that can tear me apart is loosing you, because I love you more than my own life.

-D

My heart is beating so hard, I think it's about to pop out of my chest. This has to be one of the best morning of my life. I can't stop smiling and rereading the text he sent me. Everything is so much clearer. I promise... I'm gonna trust him like I've never heard a lie. I'm gonna risk it all like I've never lost. I'm gonna love him like I've never heard goodbye.

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