Gone

You Lied Too

8/26/2016

                                                       You Lied Too 

Bria

I couldn't do it, as much as I tried I couldn't sleep with that man. Upon walking out of the bar I just kept going not bothering to stop as he called out to me. My head was all messed up and the only person that could fix, currently was not talking to me. I knew things had changed between us after her found out Josh was my brother, but a tiny part of me was still holding on. He had promised and I was a fool to actual believe him and his words. Sitting at the bus stop my buzz was gone and all I wanted to do was go home and sleep. 

The next morning I sat out in the back with my drawing pad trying to find some inspiration.  This was my day off and I wanted to spend it relaxing but my mind was all over the place. My pencil hit the paper and I spaced out for a minute letting my hands do their work. After a while I looked over my work seeing his eyes and his smile. Mecca was staring back at me, God how I miss him. 

"Brianna, Josh." My dad called my name and I closed my sketch pad to see what he wanted. He stood in the living room holding a large yellow envelope. I could see some of the writing it was written in German. 

"What's that?" I swallowed hard. 

"These came today, their letters for all three of us. Their from your mother." He handed them out to us, my hand shook as I took mines. 

"She must have mailed these before." Josh tore his open and began to read his. 

My dad put his back in the envelope and tossed his on the table, I guess he didn't want to read her last words. A part of me was relieved because I was scared she was going to tell him my secret with Greg. Josh folded up his letter and sat down on the couch, "She told me she was sorry for leaving me. She said she thought about me everyday and she loved me." Josh wiped his eyes. "If she loved me Brianna, Why would she leave me?" He asked as I sat next to him and I laid my head on his shoulder. 

"She wasn't the same person when she left Josh. Remember her as she was." I tried to console him. I sat back and opened my letter, my hands shaking wondering what her last words to me could be. Was she finally going to tell me she loved me? Was she going to apologize for the abuse. Did she forgive me? I opened the letter and it had one word written perfectly in the middle on the paper. B.I.T.C.H  I felt the tears coming and Josh took my letter from my hands and than handed it to my dad.  

"Brianna." Josh called my name. 

"It's ok." I got up off the couch. I mean what was I really expecting from her?

"No, baby girl this is not ok." My dad pulled me into a hug, were I cried in his arms again. "Even in her death, that bitch still manages to hurt my children." He murmured kissing the top of my head. 

That night I couldn't sleep, all i could see when I closed my eyes were that letter. I am a bitch, I ruined her happy life. Getting out of bed i sneaked down stairs and grabbed my dad's car keys of the kitchen counter. I was tired of waiting for him to call, I need to know what he was thinking of me. 

I knocked on his front door and waited for a light to turn on. Mecca opened the front door and came out on the porch shutting the door behind him. I guess I'm no longer welcomed inside. 

"What are you doing here Bria?" He looked annoyed. 

"Can we go inside? Or do you have company?" I really wanted to know. 

"No." He crossed his arms over his chest. 

"No to which one?" I was scared of his answer. 

Letting out a deep breath he rubbed his eyes. "What do you want Bria. I'm sorry I mean Brianna, right?"

"Bria." 

He shook his head. "You have done nothing but lie to me since the day I met you."

"What did I lie about?" 

"Your name, your age and who you really were." He's yelling at me now. 

I shook my head. "My name is Bria. Brianna died years ago Mecca. You never once asked me my age, so I never told you. Everything I have said to you has been the truth, I am who I said I am." I yelled back at him, never had I lied to him, I had to reason too. 

"What about Gregg? You were fucking your step dad? Did your mom find out? Is that why she killed him?" 

My heart dropped, he figured it all out. I started crying and felt my body jerking. He thinks i'm dirty and a whore just like she did. I turned and started walking away from him. "You running away Brianna." He followed behind me. 

"You know nothing about what went on in that house." I turned to face him. 

"Than tell me?" 

"No, because you have already made up your mind about me. I can see the disgust in your eyes. I didn't asked for that life, I just tried to survive it." I wiped my eyes and opened the car door. "You talk about me lying to you but, Mecca you lied to. You promised that you would always be here for me, that you would never leave me.  But now your running and leaving me to." I got in the car and he stood by the door. 

"Bria." 

"I'm sorry Mecca and i'll leave you alone. I promise." I drove away leaving him standing there, his words replaying in my head. 

"Love doesn't exist Mecca. Only heart ache and pain."

"That's not true Bria, people fall in love everyday."

"It doesn't matter. Why fall in love if they just leave you in the end?"

"I'm here for you Bria, I would never leave you." 

All Rights Reserved By: MrsCassey 

9/6/2016