“Arya, wait.” He called out just as I turned to leave, and against my better judgment, I turned around, figuring it was best to just get this over with, finish the story for good, and if this was the last chapter, I was more than ready for it to end.
He expression, for once, looked sincere, no ulterior motive, no smugness, just a simple embarrassed expression that I never would have believed was possible if I wasn’t seeing it with my own two eyes.
“Don’t you think it’s time we stopped messing around?”
“I already have Michael.” I said cautiously.
“Then let me apologize for real.”
The words set me back, even more than the expression had. If I was confused before, I was baffled now, and though I’d always been a bad judge of this, for once I didn’t feel like part of a game, like the audience to his one-man act, and I had no idea where this could be coming from.
“I’m sorry for everything that happened two years ago, I got carried away in a petty grudge, but it went way to far.”
“Well.” I said unsure how to respond. “Um… I’m sorry for what happened two years ago too, but I had nothing to do with it.” I added, not wanting him to think I was taking the blame for the food fight.
“I know.” He said with a wry smile. “That was all Mandy. You know, if I’d actually gotten to know you under different circumstances, I mean, you’re not that bad you know?”
“What are you trying to say?” I asked carefully, unsure why he insisted on bringing up the past.
He let out a deep breath, running his hand through his hair in a quick jerk.
“What I’m saying is… I think… I like you.”
And there it was, the three words I'd waited so long to hear, and they didn't mean a thing. I should have been happy to hear it, if for no other reason than to rub it in his face, but for once, I didn’t see him as Michael Conner, the complete jerk who broke my heart, I just saw him as another guy putting himself out there for a girl, and I didn’t have it in me to be mean about it.
"Maybe you do Michael, but I don't. I whispered back gently.
"That's not true, you love me,” He stated, suddenly so self assured, so completely confident in his words he didn't doubt them for a second. If I'd admired it once I couldn't see why. It had been the problem all along. I'd liked him too much and he'd known it, never doubted for a second, and now acted like nothing had changed.
"You're wrong,” I said simply.
"Say it then, say you don't love me. You can't can you?"
If I'd cared at all I might have been angry, annoyed at least by the slight upturn of his lips, barely suppressing a smile, as if the idea of my being over him were absolutely ridiculous.
"I don't love you Michael." I said quietly.
His face crinkled slightly with confusion, as if he'd lost the script.
"But… no… you don't mean that… it's me"
"That's just it Michael, I was never in love with you, just this idea I had of you… but you're not that guy, not the guy I thought you were, or wanted so badly for you to be, and I've finally figured that out."
Even though I lost everything along the way to figure it out.
"I am that guy.” He insisted.
I heard it again, just the slightest hint of genuine emotion, and I couldn’t believe this was actually happening, that Michael Conner liked me.
It would be so easy to give in. To forget everything that had happened, to finally get the guy I always thought I wanted. Except that guy was Wes, and he was inside, so I had to wonder what the hell I was still doing out here.
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Alone on Cloud 9
Teen FictionEveryone has that one guy. The one who broke your heart, the one who got away, the one you can't decide if you regret. Because the thing about first loves' is that you really did fall, and even though life fell short of happily ever after there were...
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