The Sex Goddess' First Love [Published under Sizzle]

Chapter Thirty Four

The party was packed. Loud music was blasting through the stereo. People were dancing and grinding on each other. Some were just chilling around... drinking, smoking, making out. 

"Mmm..." Nakarinig ako ng ungol sa tabi ko. I turned and saw Aiko making out with the guy she met earlier. I suddenly felt hot breath at the side of my neck.

"Kurt..." Nakiliti ako at inilayo ko ang leeg ko sa kanya.

I heard him chuckle before wrapping his arms around my waist. He pulled me closer to him and nuzzled his face on my neck. "Oh, God, Miranda... you smell like vanilla."

"I do?" I asked laughing. Kinuha ko ang isang baso ng vodka na nakalapag sa mesa at ininom iyon. Pinabayaan ko siyang halikan ako sa leeg.

"Yes... I wanna fuck you so hard, baby." He moaned on to my neck. I secretly rolled my eyes. I had been dating this guy for a week and he was already trying to work his way into my pants. Nagkakilala kami sa isang fashion show kung saan ako nagmomodel. Kurt is a famous hollywood star. He wasn't the first celebrity I dated. Marami na akong naging boyfriend na celebrity. In fact, he was the second guy this month. Now, the media portrays me as some sort of a man eater that would sleep with anything that has pulse. But it doesn't bother me a bit. Negative publicity is still publicity. Unti-unti ng nakikilala ang pangalan ko dahil doon.  

"Kurt, no!" Pinigilan ko ang kamay niya na papunta na sa dibdib ko.

"Why not, baby?" He asked huskily, placing kisses on my shoulder.

"We're in public." I reminded him. 

"Then let's get out of here."  Before I could say anything he grabbed my wrist and rush me out of the club. We were greeted by paparazzi, flashing their cameras. 

"Kurt, kurt! Where's Alison?" Sigaw ng isang paparazzi. Alison is Kurt's ex girlfriend. They just broke up when we started going out. Kaya ang akala ng mga tao ako ang dahilan kung bakit sila naghiwalay.

"Are you dating each other?" 

 

"Why are you dating that slut, Kurt?"

Halo-halong sigaw ng mga tao.

"Fuck off." Sigaw ni Kurt. Nakayuko siya habang hatak ang kamay ko at nagmamadaling naglalakad papunta sa kotse niya. He opened the passenger side door for me. I hopped in as he close the door after me. Then he walked around to the driver's seat. 

"Kurt..." Ipinatong ko ang kamay ko sa hita niya. He groaned when I stroke his thigh. I smiled when I saw his erection through his pants.

"Oh, fuck, Miranda. Touch me!" He moaned. I rub the inside of his thigh with my hand. "Baby, touch my cock." He said in a raspy voice. I continued teasing him. I started kissing him on the neck while I rub his thigh.

Hininto niya ang sasakyan sa tabi ng kalsada kung saan walang kotseng dumadaan. His lips crashed mine and he kissed me savagely. He used his tongue to force his way into my mouth and roam around inside. I wrapped my arms around his neck.

His lips abandoned mine as he trail down my jawline and to my neck. I closed my eyes and a familiar face flashed through my mind.

Tristan

"What?" Huminto si Kurt at napaangat ng tingin sa akin. 

"N-nothing." I shook my head.  Bumaba ulit ang ulo niya para halikan ang leeg ko. He works his way down to my exposed cleavage. I put my hands on his shoulders and pushed him away. "Let's go to my apartment." Mahinang sabi ko.

"I'm so fucking hard right now! I want to be inside you! I'll make this quick. Just let me come." He reached for the button of my jeans. Agad kong pinigilan ang kamay niya.

"Let's just continue this when we get to my apartment." Sabi ko.

Umayos siya ng upo at sumandal sa upuan. I heard him cuss under his breath. I know he's so turned on right now. He started his car and drove as fast as he could.

He parked his car in front of my apartment. We entered the building and went directly to the elevator. He started kissing me again when we got in the elevator. Finally, after eternity, the elevator stopped on my floor. We walked down the hallway to my apartment. Kinuha ko ang susi sa bag ko at binuksan iyon. Pumasok ako sa loob.

"I'm sorry, Kurt. I have an early photoshoot tomorrow. Goodnight." Sabi ko sabay sara ng pinto ng apartment ko.

"Miranda!" He furiously shouted while banging on my door. "Open the fucking door. Don't fucking play games with me."

"Good night, Kurt!" Malambing na sabi ko sa kanya.

"You're a fucking cock-teasing little bitch!" Sinipa niya ang pinto ko bago ko narinig ang yabag ng mga paa niya palayo.

I took a deep breath and walk and walked to the kitchen. Kumuha ako ng isang baso at isang bote ng wine. Dinala ko iyon sa loob ng bathroom. Pinuno ko ang bath tub ng tubig at nilubog ko ang katawan ko. 

Three years had past... They say time heals all wounds. But why am I still hurting? I don't deserve this. I don't fucking deserve this! Walang gabing hindi ako umiyak sa loob ng tatlong taon. I picked up my wine glass and took a sip. Pagkatapos kong malaman na wala na ang batang dinadala ko sa sinapupunan ko pumayag akong magpakasal kay Jason. Pumayag ako dahil gusto kong umalis sa lugar na iyon, pakiramdam ko kasi mababaliw ako habang araw-araw kong nakikita ang mga taong pumatay sa anak ko. We went to New York and got married. Nanatili si Jason sa New York at lumipat ako dito sa Los Angeles. 

"Mommy... mommy..." Tumatakbo palapit sa akin ang isang batang lalaki. Binuhat ko siya at niyakap. My baby... 

"I love you." Sabi ko.

"If you really love me then why did you let them kill me?" Malungkot na sabi ng maliit na boses niya.

I pulled away from the hug and looked at him. The little boy's face was covered in blood, it was everywhere. All I could do was scream and cry hysterically.

I woke up from a terrible nightmare in a cold sweat, gasping for air. Napayakap ako sa unan sa tabi ko at umiyak. Kasalanan ko din ito. I should've fought harder. I shouldn't have let them kill you. I'm so sorry, baby. I'm so sorry.  My tears eventually turned to sobs. I swear I'm going to make them pay. I'm going to make them pay for what they've done to you. Si Harold, si Olivia at si Tristan. Magbabayad sila.