Tilly's p.o.v
Camden gets back into bed "Baby"
"Yes honey"
"Don't be mad but i had a talk with Storm i told him how worried i was about you and he is going to talk to Ally she may want to be here with you in the day" he was looking at me like i was a time bomb waiting to go off
"Thats fine it would be nice to have some time with her"
"Your ok with it?"
"Yes Camden i need to slow down a bit i know that but it doesn't mean that i am useless" he growls at me i know its because he hates me putting myself down
"Don't ever and i mean ever think or say that you are useless again"
"Yes Alpha" he leans forward and gives me a kiss.
The next time i look at the clock its six thirty i get up and have a shower soon after i am joined by Camden i need him
"Are you sure?"
"Im sure" we make love then Camden washes my body when we finish we get dressed, i open the bedroom door and my stomach rumbles i smell food i go downstairs to find the children eating breakfast, grandma, grandpa, ma, pa, Storm, Ally, Callum, Sophie, William were all sitting around the table eating with grandma at the stove
"Morning all"
"Morning" Camden comes behind me and we sit at the table
"Not that your not welcome at any time but what are you all doing here?" Storm looks down
"Storm"
"We all care about you so sue me" i get up and walk around the table Storm looks at me with wide eyes i kiss his cheek
"You are so sweet" i take a seat at the table Camden wraps his arms around me.
"Ally i hope this is ok with you?"
"Yes its fine with me"
"Good"
"As you all know we are doing the protection spell today" Camden says
"Yes its a brilliant idea and I'm not just saying that cause she is my mate" Storm says
"I have my appointment with Daniel today at 11" i get up and start making the kids sandwiches for there dinner at school Camden is beside me.
"Baby"
"Look i know i asked for a rest and i meant that ok but i also said i will continue doing everything for you and the children" i turn back continuing making there dinner, i cant help the sob that comes out of my mouth walking out the room i go to our bedroom. Closing the bedroom door i just have time to sit down in my chair.
"Tilly baby talk to me please"
"This is what i was afraid of i don't know weather its me or not do i not explain myself well" he looks at me "i feel like you now think i cant do anything now" i sob harder he picks me up and places me on his lap
"I just want you to be ok"
"I know and i promise if i cant do something ill let you know"
"Promise"
"Yes i promise, I'm so sorry for shouting at you" the flood gates open and i cry. He rubs his hand up and down my back telling me how much he loves me, i hate that i have this i fucking hate depression, closing my eyes i snuggle closer to camden his hold tightens on me.
"Im sorry baby its time to take the kids to school" i get up and go to Emily's room grandma is there dressing her
"Morning honey"
"Mamma" she runs at me and throws herself into my arms, i hold her to me i walk to Aaron's room with Emily in my arms. Aaron spots me
"Mamma" i squat down and he runs to me i take him in my other arm and place him on my hip
"How are you this morning?"
"Good mamma" i hold them both to me there faces in my neck. We finish getting ready and take the kids to school. Once we get home i head over to the hospital
"Hello Luna"
"Hi Sadie how are you?"
"Im very well thank you Luna please come this way" i follow her to a small room with chairs a table with magazines she looks nervous
"What is the matter Sadie?"
"Is this ok for you to wait here?" I laugh out loud
"Sadie this is fine its comfortable and not to big there are magazines please stop worrying I'm very pleased"
"Oh good" she smiles i take a seat and look at the magazines
"Luna" i look up
"Daniel i didn't hear you come in" i hold the magazine up
"This way Luna" i get up and follow him we come to a room there are two sofa chairs and a two seater settee i sit down
"Luna why don't you start where you want to" i take a deep breath.
"I had a good childhood i had my parents there were times i was sad but every kid is sad time to time, when my parents died it was like a piece of me died to i didn't want to live anymore, my grandparents took me in loved me put me first how could i tell them i was falling apart they lost there daughter. Time went on and i put up a front on telling people i was fine, then when i was alone i would cut myself i needed to let the pain out crying wasn't enough. I ended up here telling my grandparents that i wanted to move i made them believe that it was what i wanted. I didn't it was so hard to leave all i wanted to do was run back but i couldn't let them see me like i was i convinced myself i was doing it for them, i also made a promise to myself that i would reject my mate i didn't want to be a burden, i miss my parents so much i think of them everyday wishing i could just hold them one last time" the tears are just rolling down my face.
"Luna its normal to miss your parents"
"I feel like its my fault that i wasn't good enough"
"Your parents loved you so much you could never disappoint them they would want you to be happy"
"I know i just wish i could feel it" Sadie passes me a tissue "i have good days and I'm blessed to have Camden the kids my grandparents his parents, sometimes i feel so tired that i cant get out of bed.
"Those days you should only do what you can don't push yourself give yourself time to relax"
"I have spoken to Camden told him i need to slow down that means you deal with Camden if you have any problems i hope thats ok"
"Of course Luna i want you to try a breathing exercise deep breath in hold for 5 seconds then breath out slowly" i try what he says and it does feel calming i look at the clock I'm 5minuets over my time
"You can tell me when my time is up i don't want to hold anyone up"
"Sorry Luna same time next week?"
"Yes that will be fine" we say our goodbyes.
