"April," she says, "I want to get married in April."
She wants to get married in April.
"This April?..." I ask, setting my newspaper down on the countertop, hoping my eyes aren't going wide, "Or next April?"
She stares at me for a second, processing my question, "This April."
Oh. This April.
"... of this year?"
A smile lights her face, "Yes, Tom. This year. This April."
"April sounds nice," I reply, grinning, and fold my newspaper up, "I'll be back in a minute, love."
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April. She wants to get married in April.
Four months. Four. Months.
How are humans supposed to breathe again?
It's like a reflex right? Your diaphragm expands and contracts and air is pulled into your lungs? I..... I don't know how to accomplish this task.
Because she wants to get married in April.
April. Just four small, miniscule, microscopic months away. A little more or less than one-hundred and twenty days.
Am I capable of even getting married??
The countertop of the bathroom supports my weight as I glance at myself in the mirror for half a second. Breathing in deeply, I hold the breath for four counts, stare at my bare feet and basketball shorts, the hem of my grey t-shirt, and blow out the air in one loud gust.
Looking into the mirror again, I see the fear in my own eyes and wonder why it's come to visit me. I was the one who asked her if she wanted to get married. I shouldn't be worried about this.
I wanted this.
I don't want the anxiety from this.
I take in the rest of my appearance: slightly tanned skin, stubble along my jaw and above my upper lip, hair styled in its normal fashion.
"Why..." I groan, putting my face in my hands, "does she think I'm attractive?"
Rubbing my hands over my face, wiping at my eyes, I drop my hands to spy a pink face returning my stare in the mirror. Frowning in its direction, my eyes lower to the plane of my t-shirt.
Have I gained weight?
I turn to the side and flatten my t-shirt across my abdomen.
Yep. No more sweets. It's all of those chocolate chip cookies Jo keeps baking and bringing over.
A knock on the door interrupts the perusal of my insecurities.
"Tom?" Comes her voice through the door, leading my hand to the doorknob, "I heard you talking- did you need something?"
Swiftly unlocking the knob and turning it in one motion, I let the door fly open to see her standing there.
Jeans. Sweatshirt. Socks. Gorgeous.
"I'm ugly," I say simply, leaning in the doorframe. The light from the bathroom is illuminating her soft features from her spot in the dark hall.
She laughs, but when I make no move to join with her she stops.
"You're kidding me, right?" She asks, crossing her arms over her chest.
"Not at all," I reply, blinking down at her.
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