We are both a mess (an Ed Sheeran fanfiction)

FINAL CHAPTER - Chapter 40

Six months later

Ed's POV

First week of the UK/Ireland tour is already complete. My parents came to the first gig which has been in Dublin. Thanks God my cousin is still with me because being by my own all nights would have been so fucking boring. I'm not still used to people screaming my name when I get to the stage. It is still weird for me but at least is better than I expected. People is very kind and calm, some of them even cry when they meet me.

It's midnight and we're all in the tour bus on our way to Oxford because my next two concerts are there. Everyone is fall asleep and although I'm tired I can't sleep. I take a look at my left arm which is now partly covered with ink. John has made a very good job. Despite we fought and he kind of hated me, I tried to fix things with him. He's an amazing guy and also a great tattoo artist. It took a little bit of time because all what happened with Nikki. I also needed to know how was she and where she was and he is the only one who could tell me that.

He just told me that she's now living in Oxford. John has told me that she couldn't live in London anymore, she couldn't stand it, mostly because of me but also because of the motherfucker of Adam. According to John, Adam threatened her at the trial. Maybe is because of that why I can't sleep. Knowing that I'm going to be in the same city as she is makes me feel nervous. I look at the tattoo that says "your name" and realise it has been a long time since I haven't talked to her. I know I've fucked up everything but in all this time I couldn't stop thinking about her.

It's 9am when I wake up. I must have slept just three hours. We are in front of the hotel so I take my bag and my suitcase and walk with my manager inside the hotel.

'We will meet at the hall at 12am. Going to take a shower and sleep a little bit or I will fall asleep on the stage tonight.' I say to my manager while opening my hotel's room.

'Okay, take care, see you later.'

As soon as I wake up from that short nap I am starving. I realise I haven't had breakfast. I put on the first tee I find on my suitcase, jeans and Nike's sneakers. When I get to the hall Stuart, my manager, my cousin and a pair of people is waiting for me. We take the van to go to Nando's. It's being like a challenge for me and my cousin, we're trying to go as many Nando's as possible on this tour and Stuart is almost done with this restaurant.

'Ed, right after this we need to go to the venue to do the sound-check and I've got good news, everything is sold out.'

'Are you being serious?'

'Yeah, of-'

'Good morning. Are you ready to order?' that familiar voice cuts Stuart off. I turn my head slightly to the left and look up to her. I can't believe Nikki is working at Nando's. Her face is pale when we make eye-contact.

'Yes. I'd like to order Double chicken hamburger with garlic bread and Coke for a drink.' While my mates are ordering I can't help it but stare at her. She makes her best to fix her attention on the digital machine.

'Any sharing platters?' She asks now with almost a shaking voice.

'No, thank you.' Stuart answers this time.

She goes to the bar and says our order. I stand up to get me some drink and when I get back to the table I keep staring at her.

'What's wrong with you and that waitress?' Murray asks me.

'She's Nikki. My ex-girlfriend.' I trap the straw between my lips and start to drink the Coke slowly.

'What? Are you kidding me?'