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Chapter 14

When I arrived at the hospital, I didn't even know what to do or where to go. I was panicking when I ran up to the front desk. The lady must've thought I was crazy, but this was a serious situation. 


"Help! Please! Harry. Where's Harry!?" I cry.


"Excuse me ma'am? What is his last name. Please calm down. I'll look him up."


"Styles! Harry Styles! Please hurry!"


"Ma'am seriously. You need to calm down. You'll wake the newborns."


I turn around in annoyance and bring my my hands up to my hair, pushing my bangs from my face. The thoughts going through my mind is what shattered my heart the most. What if he's in a coma? Or worse, what if he's not going to make it out here alive? All I wanted was to see if he's ok and give him the biggest apology possible. This is all sorta my fault. If I never would've got with that guy, none of this would've happened. We would still be able to go the the Masquerade Ball and have the best night of our lives. But now, this happened. I felt so bad.


The calling of the annoying nurse only made things worse.


"Ma'am? Excuse me. Ma'am?"


"Yes?" I clench my teeth.


"He's in the operation room, but you cannot go in there yet."


I quickly run towards the destined room once I heard her response. I didn't even bother to listen why I wasn't aloud in there. I didn't care. I just needed to see Harry. My speed picked up once I heard the nurse yell "Security!" Can't people just mind their damn business nowadays?


"Miss? Sorry but you can't go in that room yet. The doctors are still operating on him." The security politely explains.


"Please? Just, please? I really need to see him." I sob.


"I know you do. I'm very sorry. I'd let you in if I could, but I can't. I promise you'd be the first person to call when he's ready for guests. Do you mind leaving me your number?"


"Thank you so much. Of course. Here." I reply through my tears.


"It'll be about an hour. Can you stay strong 'till then?"


"Yes. Thanks again...."


"Jensen."


"Hannah." I smile.


As soon as the man walked away, I broke down and cried on the bench next to Harry's room. I didn't like this. Not being able to know if Harry was only making my anxiety worse. It sucks how I didn't have anyone there to keep me company, but I spoke to soon. A familiar voice caught me off guard once I heard my name being called.


"Hannah?"


I look up. I couldn't believe my eyes.


"Addison?" I say while wiping the dripping snot from my nose.


"Hannah. Oh my gosh. I haven't seen you in forever! I guess it's a bad time, but what's wrong love?"


Me and Addison go way back. We were college dorm buddies. We practically did everything together. When she told me she was moving, that's when I started to act all crazy. She was the only person who understood my problems. I'm so happy she's hear even though I can't really show it.


"It's my boyfriend. He was in a terrible car crash. I'm just...so worried Addison."


"Oh babe. Come here." She says as she pulls me into her arms. "I know exactly what that feels like. I lost my boyfriend to cancer. He had leukaemia. I was devastated. The only thought I was thinking was exactly how am I going to take care of this baby all on my own?"


"Did you say baby? Addison, you're pregnant?" The mood finally lightens up.


"Yeah. Don't get to excited. It was an unplanned pregnancy."


"But still, congratulations." I try smiling. "And always know that I'm here for you if you need any help. I'll leave you my number. We have a bunch of stuff to catch up on. Wanna go out for some coffee?"


"I'd love too."


"Great. If you don't mind, could you take me back to my hotel? I left my phone there and I'm waiting for a call."


"Of course. C'mon."


****


"Wow! So I can't believe you moved here! I had no idea! It's such a small world." I say while taking a sip from my coffee.


"I know right! I've missed you so much Hannah! We should so something. Like go to the Masquerade Ball! Please go with me? I don't have anyone to go with."


My smile totally vanished at the thought of her question. Me and Harry were suppose to go. Of course I want to go with Addison, but that'll only bring up the thought of Harry. I guess I changed the mood too much because seconds after, she kind of guessed why I wasn't smiling anymore.


"You were suppose to go with Harry..."


I kind of just have her a gentle nod while laying me coffee down and bringing my hand up to my face. I missed Harry so much.


"Hannah, darling. It'll be ok. The doctors are going to call you in a moment. It's been an hour already. I promise you'll be able to see him."


All I could do was nod my head. That was the only response I could give her because if I started to talk, my horrible sob will tart to occur.


Addison spoke at the right time about the doctors because the silence was broken with the annoying ringing of my phone.


"Hello?" I sniffle into the phone.


"Yes. Hannah? It's Jensen. The guy who told he'd call about Harry? Well, you can come visit him now..." He whispered the last comment. Almost as if he wasn't too sure about me coming over there. But I didn't care.


"Thank you for calling. I'm on my way." I replied while grabbing my purse from underneath the table. "Addison. Drive me please? We can go see Harry."


"Of course, love."


Addison always did treat me like her child. When my mom wasn't there for me, Addison was. But I don't like to refer to her as my parental guardian. Even though we are four years apart, I still think we have that "sister, sister" vibe.


We leave a tip for the waitress before leaving the coffee shop and heading over back to the hospital.



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"Hello. I'd like to see Harry Styles? The doctors called me telling me he was ready for guests."


"Of course. Right over there." The nurse pointed in my desperate destination.


"Addison. C'mon."


"Hannah. You go ahead. Ill wait here. I think it's right for you two to talk... Alone."


"Right." I said before giving her a great big hug in appreciation for everything. "I'll be a few."


"Take your time."


Walking over to Harry's room was actually traumatising. I was in a hurry to get there, but at the same time I wasn't. I didn't know what to expect of him. What if he's in a coma? Or broken bones? These were the thoughts that just wouldn't leave. The only way to find out, is myself.


I peaked into the little rectangular window right on Harry's hospital door. He was there. He looked ok. Couple broken bones. Arm, leg, and toes. I was torturing myself standing outside, so I walk in. I freaked out a little once I saw Harry's head turn in my direction. He gave off a confused look. I was smiling and crying at the same time. Not sad tears, but happy ones. I just wanted to apologise for everything I had caused him. The mood was somewhat awkward, but it only got worse as Harry spoke.


"Who...are you?" He said while looking me dead in the face with a confused and scared look. My heart fell.