Hard life

I'm sorry schatje

2019. winter break

Verstappen's POV:

When I woke up a beautiful face was in front of me as I opened my eyes. We agreed to tell my mom about us. I was getting nervous but I didn't want to cheek out. I gave peck on Charles lips and he smiled still with closed eyes. His dimples are so fucking adorable, it made me smile too. I got out of bed and put on some grey pants and a grey hoody. I went to the door to go downstairs to eat something. I grabbed the doorknob that's when I heard some little whinging noise from the bed. I turned around and I saw him on one elbow and he was rubbing his eyes with the other hand.

"Are you going to leave me?" -he asked me in a sleepy and husky voice

My smile widened and I went back to the bed. I climbed on top of him and he started giggling as I was above him.

"What are you doing?" -he asked me chuckling

I didn't respond, instead I started giving him soft and quick kisses.

"Good morning" -I said laughing and he put his hand on either side of my body

"Let's go eat breakfast" -he said and I got off of him

My mom arrived here this morning cause I invited her last night and now whole family both his and mine were together. Charles dressed up in a blue sweater and we went downstairs. My mom was making scrambled eggs. I felt so hungry but I wanted to tell her what I feel for Charles. We went to her holding hands.

"Morgen moeder" -I greeted her

"Hey sweety" -she said and turned around to us- "Oh" -she said when she saw us holding hands

"Mom, I want to tell you something very important. I love Charles and we are together." -I said smiling but I didn't understand why she was looking this shocked

I thought she had guessed it already

"Worst timing..." -she whispered and looked down

I didn't understand anything anymore.

"Are you fucking serious?!" -I heared my dad yelling from behind and I thought I will faint

I didn't even thought she could think of bringing him here too. My mom didn't dare to look up from the ground. I felt Charles' hand gripping mine. He was scared and I absolutely understood it, I was terrified too. There is nothing in this world I'm afraid more than my dad. He has always raised me not to be a fag and hate everyone who is not heterosexual but it turned out that I am not hetero either. I'm sure he wants me to be ashamed but I would never be. I love the man who I am standing next to.

"I want to talk with you, and only with you." -he said in an aggressive tone

I started to get angry but Charles looked at me and I see fear in his eyes. I let go of his hand, gave him a smile and followed my dad to the living room.

"What does that supposed to mean Max?! Are you fucking a guy?! Your fucking rival?! Max please say that this is just a stupid fucking joke!" -he yelled so I'm sure everyone in the whole neighbourhood had heard him

"I love him..." -I whispered

"NO MAX! NO! This is a fucking joke! He is a man! My son is not a fag!!!! Do you even understand what you are doing?!?!" -he continued the yelling and I started to feel the tears in my eyes

"But-" -I want to say something but he slapped me

It was so hard that I fell on the floor and the hurt I felt from his words was a lot worse than the physical pain. The tears dropped from my eyes.

"What will the world think Max?! What will they think of you? Of me? Of your whole fucking family! THIS IS NOT NORMAL! You can't do this!!! Do you understand me?!" -he shouted and grabbed me from the floor- "Say something!" -he shouted and slapped me again

I was crying heavily and it was impossible to say anything, but I had to.

"I will break up with him..." -I managed to say and I was on the edge of a mental break down

He let me go and I went up to my room to pack my things. He is the love of my life, how am I supposed to break up with him? Charles came in, and hugged me very tightly. He was crying too. As I felt his arms around my waist I instantly let go of my guards and let myself cry out.

"I'm sorry schatje" -I managed to say it between sobs

"I heard everything" -ha said as he pulled back to look in my eyes and he cupped up my face

"We can't be together, it was a mistake" -I said and stepped back

"Can we at least be friends?" -he asked nervously

"I need some time alone now... I'm really sorry schatje. Jij bent de zin van mijn leven." -I said and went to kiss him one last time

LeClerc's POV:

It can't be our end. It can't end like this. Not when we were finally carelessly happy. I want to die. I can't live without him. As he kissed me it said every emotion. He still loves me but he is right, Jos is right. We can't be together. It's harmful for our career. I let go of him slowly.

"We will see each other later" -he said and started packing his luggage

"Max please, don't do this to me, to us. At least be friends" -I tried to convince him with teary eyes

"Charlie, we can't..." -he said with a shanking voice

My vision went blurry from the tear pool in my eyes. I froze in my place. I don't want to loose him completely. I can't. I was on the edge of a panic attack. My hands were shanking and I felt like I will faint. Max turned around to go but on his face there was a shock as he saw me shanking. He came back to me and got hold of my hands. He let his head drop on my shoulder as he rested his forehead on it.

"I don't want to loose you either..." -he whispered- "But we have to be apart for a while till they forget this thing..." -he said and hugged me one last time

"Okay..." -I answered still totally panicked

"Just please try to calm down. We are friends forever." -he said and looked me in the eyes and smiled warmly

He let go of my hand and opened the door.

"Best friends forever" -I said finally before he left

He smiled back and left. I packed my things too and also left back to Monaco. I was thinking during the whole flight, what could have happened in a different case. Or what will happen now? I was totally lost. When I got back to the building, I went to my flat and just fell down on the bed. I was clueless. I got out my phone and called Pierre.

"Hi..." -I said in the phone

"Hey Charles! What's up?" -he asked happily

"Can you come to mine...?" -I asked him

"Of course, I'll be there in 5"

I had to tell my problems to somebody. I can't keep that many secrets. It was time to tell Pierre the ugly truth.

Author: I'm very very sorry guys but I have a lot going on at home and in school too. I write 2 stories in the same time so updates are slower unfortunately. I hope everyone can understand it and I'm thankful for all my readers. Please feel free to leave comments.