Was it Meant to Be? (Crosshairs x Cybertronian OC)

11 - Deadly Beauty

It's been a week since me and Crosshairs shared that exchange. And I remember way back what had happened in my life before. Feeling the direct warmth of one's metal against mine.

When I'm alone, I try out something I used to use ages, literally ages ago, maybe whole time periods ago. I tap my wrist, deploying a hologram off my whole life status. I knew I was old, but I never knew I was this old.. but something else had captured my attention, a bit too much, a countdown.

"2 Days." and what came after is something I wish I could erase from existence because I think it's physically and mentally useless to me now.

"Till Cycle." I don't need further context to what the cycle is, I'm only assuming that's when I'll become a sex deprived bot. And it's already happening, already getting the warning signs, already getting the prequel of what could happen. On a positive note, I'm not the same species as Crosshairs— I know I didn't need to specify.. But just an example. So hopefully, he won't detect anything, I forgot how exactly I will behave, but I can already sense I'll be needy and not wanting to do anything.

I tap my wrist again, the hologram resuming back into my wrist pad. I hear some bots running sown the halls occasionally, but none ever stop till my doo– spoke too soon.

I open the door.

Leuci: "Oh, hey Bumble!"

Bee's a nice guy. He doesn't speak much since he is limited in what he can say, but he always chooses violence as a last resort in most circumstances.

Bumblebee: "Hello Leuci, just to let you know, the medbay will be out of use till Ratchet gets back from a mission, and Hound isnt exactly qualified yet, so don't go hurting yourself. Got it?"

Leuci: "Roger."

It was most of a conversation I've had in a while. Bumblebee left shortly after we exchanged 'Bye's momentarily. I closed the door and went back to my little cove for a bed. If I can even call it a bed, it's so uncomfortable.  Besides the point, my mind was filled with a variety of scenarios about what my life in 2 days could look like. It wasn't a very healthy thought for a start, but I'm trying to remember ways I used to combat the excessive need to get down with a male. I shouldn't be feeling this way.. especially about Crosshairs, but the first man I laid my optics on in 2 days is going to be my target.

1 day passes.

I just know fine well, everything is going to come down on me tomorrow, I'm not excited. I'm outside at the waterfall area again, and the sun is shining like never before. I at least hope it isn't a meteor. That was a traumatising experience in itself. It's hard trying to get quiet time in this world, there's always the unescapable sound of a bomb going off a few miles away every hour. And out of nowhere..

Crosshairs: "Where have you been?!"

He sounded mad.

Leuci: "Just procrastinating.."

Crosshairs: "Well, what about??"

Leuci: "About the future of this world.."

I wasn't entirely lying. The cycle could change my future.

Crosshairs: "Well, it better be a bright one because someone said you went into the medbay rook last night when Bumblebee told you not to."

I don't remember this happening.. At all.. When Bumblebee left me, I went into my little cove in the fall, blocked off the way with a rock, and slept till my spark contended to.

Leuci: "I didn't." I don't know how I can prove it, I was outside the whole time.

Crosshairs: "Leuci.." he pinches the roof of his nose. "I won't ask again, did you?"

Leuci: "No Crosshairs, I did not go into medbay last night, I was outside the entire night. When Bumblebee left my little cove, I closed up the entrance with a rock and slept. I didn't leave."

I don't know how much more convincing this man needs.

Crosshairs: "Alright. But if I find out you really did, there will be consequences. And that is for certain."

With that, he simply left. Leaving me in my thoughts again about tomorrow. I walked over to the rocky ledge where I'd see Drift occasionally sitting down or meditating, but he wasn't here today. So I took his spot like the cheek I am.

There's so much more about my body that I want to resee. So I tapped my wrist again, looking at my whole health and body status this time. There is a section all about my reproductive mechanics. So I tapped on it instinctively. I'm quite shocked, but not at the same time. I have a capacity with how much I can intake, I'm going to assume that's food when I do end up carrying a child but it's not in that measur— oh shit it's referring to males. Well, I don't know if any are even left alive in this world, but I don't know if my cap is large. But I don't know exactly where anything is going in.

I close down the hologram, and I wrnt to my little bed to sleep, preparing myself for tomorrow's works.